california here we go (sequel to gas)

chapter fifteen

"i have been entangled in the phenomenon of being codependent. my entire life my greatest objective has been of the greatest significance to another. i have attempted to find it within friendships and/or romantic connections. every. single. time. it fails. I am not significant enough. I WILL ALWAYS BE SECOND PLACE. (to them) no longer will i tolerate being in this place.

i am number one. i will be treated as such, and i will ignore every single one of you until you start treating me like i deserve.

THE ONLY TIME THAT I GET TO SAY ITS ABOUT ME is sometimes and even then no one acts interested. i want it to be about me me me. FUCK YOU ALL. I HAVE NEVER BEEN A PRIORITY, EVEN IN MY LOWEST MOMENTS IM STILL NOT A FUCKING FOCAL POINT." natalie said.

"please, please, please, you need to calm yourself", shania replied.

The air was so thin around Gustav and Shania. Where would she go after this? Were the symptoms of this mental illness present from the beginning? Why did she never mention anything?

"Shania.. You know she's not real right? This has all be a figment of your imagination? I am here, not this ghost."he exclaimed, as he slowly approached her hospital bed.

"I know she's here and I am sick of you calling me crazy. You know what's crazy? Being called crazy over and over and over.. I am sick of it!", she rolled onto her side.

Gustav pushed her on her back gently. He saw in her eyes clouds and promises in a distant plane. An adventure cut short by the harsh realities of human existence. Things aren't always as they seem.How to progress in the bleakness, it would remain unanswered.

Shania's family would never understand. Never. Mental Health issues weren't real, and if they were for those unlucky few, it wasn't real for them. God had spoken and she was stricken, it was deserved. Only sinners were punished into such unfortunate circumstances.