california here we go (sequel to gas)

chapter thirteen

i wont be writing often because i have a man to attend to,,, xoxo still love yall
—-

there are many times in life where two peoples paths cross, and their relationship seems to sparkle more than the rest. two individuals depend on one another for the many components that other relationships may lack thereof. both parties can speak about their deepest, darkest, most terrifying emotions..

these relationships can be a friendship, a romantic relationship, etc. however, there comes a time in these seemingly perfect relationships where they may start to crumble. it may start by having one small differing opinion, or one different passions. other times, even though it may be difficult to cope with, it's another person. YES- another person.

although it may be difficult to understand, the person you bonded so deeply with may find someone who bonds better with them. that understands them in ways that you could never. that is why they chose to dedicate themselves completely to this new party in the first place. they were doing things you could never dream to achieve, you must be left behind.

it's similar to when one has a valuable that has been kept for a long time. this valuable doesn't gleam or shine or really work as well as it used to. one must look for a new one that will work better and be more efficient than ever. under a capitalist society, people always look for the most cheap and sufficient method.

the same could be said about me or even you, we could replace people and not even realize it. theres always someone better right? we all subconsciously leave someone who meant the world to us in the dust at one point or another. it's not because one is a shitty person but because one of our freedoms is the ability to find someone better. who could blame a person for searching for the best?

time and time again, throughout my existence i have been subject to these replacements. where i dont serve a purpose, the spot i once held in the people i have cherished lives is gone. someone else fills the spot and even better than i ever did. it's like i never existed, and im just a forgotten broken piece that lays forgotten in a dumpster somewhere.

it would be really ignorant to say that i have never dumped anyone in this way. i have done it to multiple people, and i always believed i was doing what was right. i always did. i really really wasnt, because every single time that i think im bringing someone to my life and they care about me just as much, they dont. they always eventually prioritize someone else.

it hurts to be a forgotten piece of a puzzle. im always a distant memory for a moment in time.

gus loved her more than he ever loved anyone.