My Sister's Fiance

Chapter Eight - - Accepting the Engagement

Its been pretty late when Emily went home. She gave Cassandra a hug and a kiss and the latter suddenly feel her weight of emotions with her. It was too much, too heavy. .too painful for Emily and Cassandra knew it. She could feel it as if she could see it and touch it herself.

"you okay?" she ask Emily as the latter drift away from her.

Emily gave her a small smile and then nodded and try to went upstairs.

But she new better. Emily wasn't, she wasn't okay. Both of them are not okay there's no way denying it.

"Emme. ." Emily pause and look at her for a while, and then Cassandra was left staring for a moment not knowing why she even call her, but maybe because she's sad and she can sense it and she know the reason behind it or maybe because she just love her and wanted to see her happy. She want to see her smile and her always vibrant mood. Not this, not this sight where she see her holding something huge and hard. Like she was the one suffering, the one who is sacrificing for her when it should be her sacrificing for Emily.

"I-- I am. .-".she mul over. " I am cooking dinner tomorrow night. I --I also invited our friends to come over. Might as well celebrate your engagement with our friends, right?" Cassandra tried to sounded a little lively, going with her impromtu decision. And thou admittedly her acting skills was not her forte but she might as well push for it right? Besides she's not entirely sure about this idea but it just slip from her tongue like she knows that this is what Emily needs, knowing there might be no turning back.
Then looking how Emily's eyes lit with delight and how she rushed down the stairs to hug and kiss her proves that really there'll be no turning back now.

"thank you." Emily said tearfully while hugging her. " so damn much.."

Cassandra give her a tight hug too then pat her gently in the back. She tried not to leak her pounding emotions even if she feel choked. But she restrained herself reminding herself that This is for her. For Emily.

"your welcome." Cassandra feels that this might be one of the greatest mistake in her life but she knows she would not regret any moment of it. Her parents died and her brother too, and Emily now is the only person she has and Emily's happiness no matter how painful to her is hers too.

Cassandra closed her eyes and muttered "I love you, sis." At lost of any words to say.

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Early morning Cassandra had already prepare what to buy for their dinner party tonight. The party is small, numbers were just expected to be round twenty people to thirty but her friends are monstrous eaters. They don't eat, they devour food. So she ask her friend Evelyn to assist her for cooking, Emily volunteered too and ask her two other friends to come over and help so the kitchen was quiet messy. They made mango float and buko pandan for desserts and ordered Ice cream for back-ups. They also cook spaghetti (Filipino's all time favorite in a feast) and maha. For main dish they plan to buy roasted chickens and liempo later before guest arrive and cooked sarsa food like menudo, caldereta and kari-kari. All time dish like lechon (mini-lechon to be exact) were ordered too. They also cook her favorite Humba and the undying pancit that is served in almost every Filipino occassion.

Tiring as it is but they manage to clean before guest arrive at seven. The house went almost full and chatterings are everywhere. Excited for the get together.

At exactly seven thirty they already pray and bless the food and started attacking the food. Cassandra is happy for the fruits of their labor despite her own dislike for the purpose of the event.

But as people started their food and how her own sister were engrossed in telling their friends about her Fiance, Cassandra took the liberty and went outside to take a few breather. She could feel herself suffocating there, she could feel and see their excitement with her sister's wedding but she could not emphatize with them. Her feeling is so vague and far from being happy, in fact she feel like dying. Yes it was her idea but she only did this for Emme yet, she didnt know it would have hurt this way, like she was the one piercing herself . Wounding and wounding herself again and again.