Lovesick | JERRIE

24.

Perrie felt enough frustrated and puzzled last night. But when she woke up alone in the Saturday morning, her brain was on the verge to devastate itself. In her own bed. While Perrie was sure she fell asleep in Jade's. There was no trace from the brunette either. Nothing. As if it all was a dream. Was it actually? Did Perrie got so drunk and drugged again that she started mixing up reality and dreams?

Pez slowly got up. She was sober. Not hungover. Then what actually happened last night. She quickly went down to find Jade reading some of her thick books.

"Good morning, Perrie." she cheery said. "You hungry?"

Perrie blinked dumbfounded. What was exactly happening?

"I was waiting for you. Wanna have breakfast together?" Jade stared expectantly at her. "Would you mind speaking to me today?"

"Yeah... I'm... um... confused."

"Why?"

"I'm not really sure what happened last night." she followed Jade to the kitchen where took a seat on the chair while Jade was about to make breakfast.

"You were heavily wasted again and you don't remember?"

"No, no, I remember vividly almost everything but... I'm just confused and—"

"What do you remember?"

"I... I was drunk and called you a bad word. Then you ran away and when I found you... I told you that I love you and we got back home." Perrie slowly explained; careful to not miss some event. "And... you kissed me." she let this out so shakily that it instantly softened Jade's heart.

So, Perrie was getting excited and thrilled by a kiss?

"That's pretty much what happened. Why are you confused?" Jade felt somehow distanced; not like usually.

"It was too good to be true. I wanted to tell you this for so long and... I can't believe it finally happened." Perrie stuttered. "And also, I woke up alone..."

"First of all. Yes, everything you said actually happened but do you know why you woke up alone?"

Pez shook her head no.

"Because I'm not your whore to sleep shamelessly in your bed."

The words stabbed Perrie. They kissed?! Didn't this mean they were... girlfriends... relationship... something? Jade was intentionally torturing her.

Oh, not again. Perrie's ocean overflowed down her cheeks. Pez was honestly fed up with herself. This was one of the many days that she wished she never had woken up. Everything was going backwards. It was getting harder to keep your walls high when life was constantly trying to destroy you.

"Why are you crying, baby?" god blessed this saviour.

Jade went to Perrie and pressed her into her chest; drawing soothing circles on her back.

"Because I love you so much, Jade... I regret every second that I made you hurt." Perrie sobbed.

The rich never-needer broke it's shield, exposing the soft girl behind. So, Jade won. She achieved reaching Perrie's heart.

"Make me feel like I'm breathing, I'm begging you."

Jade kissed the top of her silky blonde hair. She never thought that instead of searching the right remedy, she had to find it in herself. Jade was the cure for Perrie's soul.

"But first..."

"I have to stop going to the club."

"Yes... This will be a very torturous process for you." Jade caressed her arms down to hold her hands.