bee boy

chapter 23

You dont really know where you're going, you're just letting your legs drag you to where ever they desire...

You find yourself at the beach, you sit down on the sand as wrap your arms around your knees, keeping them close to your chest as you stare off into the distance.

You watch as the waves crash against the ground. The soothing sound only adding to the whole experience.

"Y/n?" You hear someone ask. You turn your head and look over your shoulder.

You see Niki, Will, Fundy and Tommy stood there a short distance away. You look back at the waves.

They seem to talk amongst themselves for a second before Will walks over and takes the space next to you.

"You ok?" He asks quietly.

"I dont know," you answer honestly, refusing to pull your gaze from the ocean.

"Its ok," he says as he puts his arm around your shoulder and pulls you slightly closer to him. You rest your head on his shoulder and sigh deeply.

"What if it isnt?" You ask.

"What do you mean?" Will asks as he looks at you.

"I mean... what if we dont make it through?" You explain.

"Y/n, I cant promise that you will because honestly, i dont know," he says before continuing, "but all I know is that you're mad at him, understandably so, but that means that you have to decide how you feel before you run back to him,"

"What if I make the wrong decision though?" You ask.

"Look at me," he says, you relunctantly do so. You lift your head from his shoulder and turn slightly to see him.

"If this is what you're worried about again, then you'll learn from it. No matter what happens at this point, we are all here for you," he says.

"Thankyou will," you say silently as you look down at your hands which were fumbling around nervously in your lap.

"Why did you come out here?" He asks.

"I... I dont know, I just needed to get away from that party for a minute, i let my legs carry me where ever they felt like it and apparently it ended up being here," you chuckle nervously, "are you mad?" You ask, second guessing everything you do.

"No, no, im not mad," he says, "i was just curious, we kinda figured the party had gotten a bit much for you,"

"Did i ruin it?" You ask, your doe eyes glancing up at him.

"Not at all, we followed after you to make sure you were ok," he explains.

"You guys can go back if you want," you shrug. You wanted to be alone but you also didnt want to be.

You felt unsafe and uneasy knowing that you were supposed to be mad at Toby. You hated being angry at him because it upset you.

"Are you sure?" He asks.

"Yeah, i kinda want to be alone for a bit," you nod, "you know, to think some things through,"