im sorry- a ghostinnit Story (On A Break For Now)

"now lets go read those notes okay?"

I nod and techno grabs my hand he kinda jumps at the random warmth on my hand. I look at tubbos hand, they were red and looked like they were almost burnt, mostly just dry. I take my hand from technos.
"Dont hold it if it hurts."
Techno takes it and drags me to the door.
"Its not hot at all just warm."
I nod and he opens the door and pulls me outside. I close the door as he drags me away from the house.
"Now from the start before you jumped that day tell me what happened step by step, no detail left out, and don't Crack a joke im serious Thomas."
I went to complain or insult him, but his face was serious no glint of happiness anywhere I so I just nod and look at the ground thinking.
"So, this morning I woke in the hole..... that I slept in for a long time... I finished your note because I was scared to write yours the most.... I then put the chest filled it.... then I... I... tried to get a hold of ghostbur, phil and tubbo even you to try to say goodbye or give a warning but no one answered ghostbur said hello but then said fundy wanted to talk so left...me.... I then gathered my note to dream and my sword and stuff and headed to the nether. I wasn't going to message dream yet because I needed to prepare myself to just get ready to die when dream appeared behind me I said my goodbyes and fell, well I jumped. Is that good enough?"
Techno thought about it for a while his long ears twitching.
"What were your last words?"
I laugh sadly as I stop walking and look up at the sky.
"As many traitors once said 'it was never meant to be.." 
I give him a 2 finger salute and fall back into the snow, showing him how it happened. I laugh and get up in the snow was a me shaped spot from where I melted the snow.
Techno looks down at the ground. I hear a choked sob. I look up and see techno crying, tears streaming down his face. I stand there not knowing what to do, I couldn't think of a joke or insult, I didn't know what to say to comfort him, Its techno! He never cries! Even growing up he never cried.. maybe once but I don't  remember! I slowly walk up to him as shields his face with his arm. I hug him not really knowing what to do.
"Im sorry... I didn't mean to make you cry.. I didn't think you would miss me that much, if I knew you would hurt this much I would of never done it.."
Technoblade cried harder so I just hug him harder hiding my face in his chest. I gripped on his soft coat.
"I don't hate you tommy and never did!"
I grip his coat tighter.
"I want you to though! I've done so much to you and im always betraying you I want you to be mad and push me away! That's the techno I remember.... I think? I don't really remember... if you should hate me but I feel like you should! I don't remember what I did exactly I just know you should hate me!!"
Techno slowly let go and looked me in the eyes.
"You're my brother, I could never hate you! We share blood! We grew up together! Yeah things happen but I always saw you as my brother!"
I started to sob I don't know why but I just couldn't stop the tears. I drop to my knees and cry harder.  Techno kneels down and rubs my back as I cry. I throw myself on him once again gripping onto the back of his shirt. He comforts me by just rubbing my back which I know if the best way he can. I soon calm down and stand up. He looks down at me with his red eyes. I use to always fear them because he always looked mad but I now see them soft and comforting.
"Now let's go read those notes, okay?"
I nod and he wraps a arm around me and we head for the house.