I just want to be the one you love (h.h.j x l.f.l)

15

Felix's pov

I don't feel good. I thought lying on my bed.

It was a couple days of I.N trying to get me to like him back.

It's stupid. I obviously don't like him.

and I haven't seen Seungmin in a couple days, i feel so bad.

My phone rang...

Innie is calling you.

Don't answer.

Don't answer.

Don't-

"Hello??" I caved

"Hi Lixxie!!"

"What do you want?"

"Calm down love! Can we go out?"

"No"

"But baby-

I hung up. I'm so tired of this shit.

I suddenly felt the urge to cut myself. I wanted to feel something again.

⚠️⚠️⚠️

I ran downstairs to find the closest knife.

I looked at it, do I really need to do this?

My phone rang again.

I didn't even bother looking..

Fuck it.

I swiped the knife across my arm.

First small, then harder, longer swipes.

I screamed in pain, but pleasure.

Someone bursted into my apartment.

God. I need to lock my door.

"LIXXIE"

I swear I'm going to kill this kid.

"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?"I yelled.

"Love, what are you doing!!" He ran up and pulled the knife away from me.

"WHY DID YOU DO THAT?"

"Lixxie, why are you yelling at me?" Innie teared up.

"BECAUSE YOUR FUCKING STUPID. YOU THINK I WILL EVER LOVE YOU? YOU LOVE SEUNGMIN, ONLY SEUNGMIN. GET THAT IN YOUR TINY HEAD. STOP CALLING ME, AND TEXTING ME, AND SEEING ME. ALL YOU PEOPLE CARE ABOUT IS SEX, NOTHING MORE."

"LET. ME. BE" I cried out.

"Lixxie..-

"STOP FUCKING CALLING ME THAT"I pushed him.

He fell to the ground and started crying loudly.

I saw someone else run over to I.N. Hyunjin??

I REALLY need to lock my door.

"Felix! what the hell is wrong with you?" Hyunjin turned to me.

"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?? YOUR THE ONE IN LOVE WITH A TAKEN MAN. CHANGBIN. WILL. NEVER. LOVE. YOU."

"AND I WILL NEVER LOVE THIS BITCH"I pointed to Innie.

"Oh bitch you better-"

He noticed my arms.

He sighed and looked up at me with glossy eyes.

"felix.." he pulled me into a hug.

I tried to pull away, but he was too strong.

Instead I hit his back with my knuckles. "let... go"

"no" he whispered. Why does he make me feel so good??

"Innie, can you leave?" Hyunjin pulled away from the hug, still holding onto my hips.

I.N's eyes widened. "W-why?"

"He's not interested. He won't ever be." Hyunjin simply said.

I.N took a deep breath, answered a small ok, and quietly left.

Hyunjin looked at me.

"I-I'm sorry."

"No you're not"