Lily's way out

Chapter 15:

I know that he was laughing.. I know... I could see them laughing.

It didn't help the thoughts though. Stupid Stupid girl, how dare you mess up. Stupid stupid stupid girl. You should be punished now, look at how strong they are and how weak you are. They will hurt you, they will get up and...

"Lily?"

"Hey Lily calm down Lily he's just joking. He's not mad at you, right brother?"

The man sitting in front of me wiped away the last of the chicken soup and grinned up at me.

"Calm down girly, you didn't hurt me it's okay."

I nodded slightly and set down the glass of water.

"You probably have a lot of questions Lily, but I have to warn you now we can't tell you everything for your own protection." Anthony tried to look in my eyes but it was all a bit much so I just looked at my hands and nodded.

"Alright Anthony do you want to do the talking or who's gonna explain."

"I can explain the basics to her if that's okay with you guys."

The man in the room uttered a kind of guttural sound and Anthony shifted in his seat.

"Alright Lily I'm just gonna start with the obvious, I joined a motorcycle club. A few months before you went missing I started prospecting with this MC because I felt like I had nowhere else to go after the army. I missed having brothers and I found that here."

"AH you're gonna make me cry Bear." A man down the table shouted at Anthony.

"Shut up Red, where was I oh yeah so I joined these guys and then six months later I got a call from the police that my parents were murdered. I hoped you weren't there, that you had gotten away but nobody could find you."

Anthony took a deep breath and clenched his hands.

"The scumbags had taken you with them for some reason."

I looked up at Anthony and he stopped his story.

"They took me because of you and your parents." Tears welled up in my eyes and images of all those cold nights flashed before my eyes.

"What did you say?" A man at the head of the table looked me directly in the eyes and lifted his eyebrows up.

I brought my hands up to my face and took a deep breath.

"Lily if you know something you have to tell us." Anthony tried to grab my hands but I pulled them back and held them against my chest.

Slowly I stood up and backed away from the table, no longer feeling hungry and no longer feeling safe.

"They took me because your parents wanted to trait me for some drugs. But then when they found out who you were they decided to change that plan. They shot them in front of me, their blood was on my face. I had to wash your parents blood out of my hair."

I backed myself up in to the corner with Anthony right in front of me and a couple of his 'brothers' right behind him.

"What do you mean they had to change their plan Lily." Anthony tried to sound calm but I could hear the strein in his voice.

"They wanted to hurt you by hurting me," I looked my brother straight into his eyes, "And they did. You are the reason why I was there. While you were busy playing with these 'brothers' of yours, they hurt me."

Tears were running down my face and my breathing started to pick up again.

"You said that you were always going to be there for me, that you were going to protect me from all the bad things. YOU SAID THAT I WOULD NEVER FEEL ALONE AGAIN," by now I was screaming it in Anthony's face while beating my hands on his chest, "But where were you when I needed you? Hmm.. I hadn't seen you in years. You left me."

It wasn't until I tried to focus on the faces in front of me that I really started to feel my chest constricting. All I could see was strangers and strangers meant danger.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry I'm sorry I was a bad doll. Please don't hurt me,..please please. I promise to do better PLEASE."

Then someone picked me up.

"What are you doing, Gunner." Anthony sneered at the man holding me against his chest.

"Don't you see what this is doing to your sister Bear? It's probably too much and she needs to rest."

"No we need answers." Another guy muttered.

"I suggest you shut up right now brother." The man that was once at the head of the table said.

"Lily I am the president, you can call me press or Iron. Just know if you need anything come find me. Now Bear you and Gunner take Lily up to a free room. I'm sure the rest of you have something to do and remember we have a barbeque tonight."

The man all yelled something and soon the room was empty.

"Gunner hand me over my sister and you go make sure the room is clean."

I was passed over to my brother and he tucked my head closer to his chest. My eyes started to droop and I started to fall asleep.

"I'm so sorry Lils"

And I was out like a light.