history of magic {D.M} (editing)

Chapter 16

{TW:Suicidal thoughts/not eating}
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Rose's POV
I stayed in bed for the rest of the day crying and sobbing, the pain was to much,I couldn't breathe nor think anymore. Hermione tried to come in my room a couple times but I wouldn't let her in

My face is covered in dry tears,I slowly tried to get out of bed, my body in pain from staying in bed all morning

I  headed to the extend bathroom that Hermione and I shared

As I slowly closed the door As I walked to the sink turning the water on rinsing my face with ice cold water and quickly looked at my self in the mirror My green eyes no longer a pretty earthly green, they are now just filled with sorrow and sadness

My hair was in a messy bun but now it's even more messy do to my tossing and turning In bed all night

I grabbed a face cloth rising of the water off my now pale skin making me tense up a little

after a while of staring at myself for a bit in the mirror i finally leave my dorm to head down the great hall for lunch, even though i am not that hungry

but i knew Hermione would want me to eat anyways

as i walked through the aisle of tables of houses. i get to the Gryffindor one seating next to Ron as he eat, like normal

Hermione studying,everyone acting normal

It was kinda getting on my nerves

I turned around at the Slytherin table

Draco wasn't there but pansy she was starting right at me with an evil smirk on her face I quickly turned my head back my eyes almost with tears "hey rose-"Hermione noticed my gloomy mood.

The smell of food didn't quite make it to my appetite

I looked down to my lap "Rose please eat"Harry say a bit rude,we haven't really talked since I left the borrow

I shake my head "come on it's just food" he say grabbing a plate and filling it with food I noticed Hermione giving me a 'what's wrong' look but I ignore it "I am not hungry right now Harry" I say with guilt

"Rose.." Hermione say quietly

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After lunch and lots of Harry forcing me to eat
Which I bit one bite of a salad

It was almost getting Late

I decided to head to the black lake.

I had a jumper that I have been wearing for the past two days and some sweatpants. I got shivers down my body as I walk closer to the lake

I slowly take of my shoes and dip them in the cold water

Watching the sky changing to dark blue and white

I looked around to make sure no one was around the area before taking my jumper off along with my sweats

I had shorts under my pants,I sighed letting go of every thought and trauma I had seen/thought of

quickly putting my arms down next to my slim body

And pushes myself to jump into the ice cold water goosebumps forming all over my body I plopped back up gasping for air

My clothes sticking to my body

My hands went threw my now wet red hair, my face felt cold my eyes yet still closed to scared to open them

I slowly open them seeing the beautiful sky

My arms were splashing threw the black water

I stand there in the cold water Thinking back to all my memories with Draco.