High Enough || DreamNotFound

Rental Car

Tw: Pills, panic attacks
Dream's Pov:

We saw Sapnap come out of the gate and we quickly walked over to us with a smile on his face. He hugged both of us and I quickly asked him how his flight went before we went over to the car. I sat in the drivers seat with Sapnap next to me and George in the back seat. I could see George in my mirror and he had a blank expression. I just started driving to the house and talked with Sapnap.

"So what's the plan for the rest of the day?" I said outloud.

"I was actually planning on going to get a rental car for the time that I'm here." Sapnap replies

"Want me to take you?"

"No dude it's fine, i'll take an Uber there."

"Oh um ok." I replied.

Am I going to have to be left alone with George at the house?

I pulled into the driveway and George helped Sapnap with his bags so that I could go unlock the front door.

We all walked in and I told the guys that I would be in my room for a bit to rest. With that, I left Sapnap and George in the living room and closed the door behind me when I entered my room.

I can't keep avoiding George; his voice is what keeps me sane. What if I try and talk to him when Sapnap is gone? No, he doesn't want to talk to you. He's probably happier now that he doesn't have to deal with you.

I paced up and down my room starting to feel shaky and my breathing pattern become abnormal. Everything felt like it was going in slow motion and it felt like my walls were closing in on me. I control myself and walk into my bathroom. I grab the bottle of pills and take 4. I drank them knowing that it wouldn't be enough to have an overdose. I then leave the bathroom and fall into my bed.

I let my tears run down my cheeks and cover my face with my pillow. I put the pillow down on my lap and start punching at it to let out the anger I felt. I could feel my hands hitting my legs through the pillow but I couldn't feel any pain from it.

My arms then felt weak and I fell back on my bed's headboard. I silently cried to make sure that the guys didn't hear me from outside.

George's pov:

Sapnap said he was going to go put his stuff in his room before he left so, I was left alone in the living room. I got up to make myself a sandwich then walked over to the kitchen table to eat. I was left alone with just my thoughts; I walked over to my room to grab my phone so that it could fill the silence.

As I walked down the hallway, I could hear loud hit sounds coming from dreams room. I put my ear against his door to hear better and I heard a quiet sob come from inside the room. I wanted to go into his room and ask if he was okay but my body couldn't let me twist the doorknob. It almost felt like there was someone pulling my hand back from the doorknob. I stepped back from his door and walked back to my room.

I sat down in my bed and my mind was replaying Dream's sobs. The way he sounded like he was in such pain made my heart hurt.

You're such a shitty friend. You're so useless here. Sapnap and Dream probably don't even want you here.

I felt my eyes get watery but I quickly got up before I could let tears fall. I went back to the kitchen after I remembered I left my dish on the kitchen table. I walk over to pick up my plate and I see Sapnap sitting on the couch with Dream.

How does he look so normal? Wasn't he just crying in his room?

"Oh hey George, I was just about to head out, do you need anything from somewhere while i'm out?" Said Sapnap.

"Oh no I'm good thanks."

He stands up and told us that his Uber was outside waiting for him. We tell him goodbye and he closed and locked the door behind him. There we were; Dream and I alone in the house.

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~749 Words~

Author's note:
Wanted to get this chapter out sooner so it might not be the best. Anyways, thank you for the huge amounts of support from everyone who's read this, it really means the world to me. Make sure you take care of yourself and just know you're perfect and I am so beyond proud of you <3