High Enough || DreamNotFound

Behind the Door

Tw: This chapter contains thoughts of self harm and pills.

George's Pov:

My head hurt when I woke up so I stayed in bed for a bit until I finally gained enough energy to get out of my bed. I felt the cold air and it sent goosebumps down my back. I walked over to my bathroom and I just looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes were red and swollen and my hair was messed up. I felt my eyes tearing up so I walked away from my mirror and decided I'd take a shower before we left for the airport to pick up Sapnap.

I turned on my shower and the warm water on my back felt comforting. I stood in the water to let myself soak and after a couple minutes, I felt the tears coming again. What's wrong with me. Why can't I just be enough. He's never going to be mine. I felt the tears falling from my eyes but, I let them mix with the warm water. I looked around the shower and noticed an unused razor. Do it. Just cut your arm a few times. This will help the pain go away. I reached my hand over and grabbed the razor. I put it up to my arm but stopped myself before I could make a cut. I dropped the razor and quickly rinsed my hair.

I grabbed my clothes and just laid back down. I didn't have any energy to do anything. I felt so exhausted even though I just got up. As I payed down staring at the roof, I broke. I felt my face get hot and tears run down my face. I wanted to let out a scream to release my built up pain but I knew I wouldn't be able to do that with Clay in the same house as me.

Dream's Pov:

I constantly woke up in the middle of the night so, by 5, I had been awake already. As I was tossing and turning, all I could think about was him. Why didn't I let him in? He's never going to want to be with me now. I ruined everything, like always. I got up from my bed and waked over to the kitchen. The shining from the fridge made my eyes hurt. I grabbed a water bottle and went back to my dark room. The dark gave me a sense of comfort so, I sat on my floor with my head leaned back on my bed. The silence in my room made my heart hurt for some odd reason. All I wanted in that moment was to hear the sound of Georges warm voice.

I had started to feel a headache so, I finally got up off my floor and walked over to my bathroom. I looked in the medicine cabinet and saw a bottle of Advil. I looked at the back of the bottle to see the instructions.

Directions: -do not take more than directed- adults and children 12 years and older: take 1 tablet ever 4 to 6 hours while symptoms persist.

Come on, take more. Drink half the bottle. It will help with the pain. Why are you even still here, George doesn't want you. Might as well end it now.

I hear my phone go off which snaps me out of my thoughts. I walk over to my bed and reach for my phone. I see a message from Sapnap that says he'll be landing in half an hour. I set my phone down and quickly got dressed.

Not wanting to talk to George, I just texted him to head over to the car.

I walked over to the car and started it. I sat in the car for a bit until I saw George walking over to the car. He looked tired but not the sleepy type of tired; it looked like he was just mentally tired. I glanced at him then started driving.

The car ride was quiet for the most part until we got to a red light. I quickly opened my phone and connected it to the car in order to play music. The car was soon filled with the sound of "Mr Loverman" playing.

I could hear George quietly humming along with the song which made me smile but still feel sad. As more of the song passed, the more the lyrics made me feel like breaking down.

Oh what am I supposed to do without you?

I could feel my tear filling up my eyes but I couldn't let them fall because I knew George would see me.

I let the song finish and by the time that we had gotten to the airport, my heart was in so much pain. Knowing that I pushed George away was the biggest mistake I had ever done. We both stepped out of the car and walked over to the gate where Sapnap would be coming from.

Sapnap had said that his flight was landing which meant George and I would have had to just stand there waiting for him. We stood next to each other but still felt to apart. I could see from the corner of my eyes that George was just fidgeting with his hands as we were just standing there in silence.

I wanted to wrap my arms around his slim waist and cry into his shoulder. I wanted to tell him that I was sorry and I wanted to work thing out with him. Before I could do anything else, I finally was able to see people walking out of the gate were Sapnap would be.

There he was, the third member of the dream team.

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Author's Note:
I am so sorry for taking so long to finish this but I will for sure get back to uploading chapters soon. Anyways, thank you for everyone who was patient with me and remember to take care of yourself; you deserve it <3