High Enough || DreamNotFound

Closure

Dream's Pov:

George's name popping up on my screen made my heart stop. I hadn't heard from him in a little over a month and I was barely able to come to terms with everything. I don't know if this is what I need right now but I need closure.

I stared at his text for a few minutes as I typed and deleted what I wanted to say. I eventually come up with a "sure" and almost immediately see a call cover my screen.

Incoming Call: George

My finger hovers over the green answer button and I press it after 4 rings.

I hear a hello fill my ears and it makes a sense of vibration in my chest. I let out a shaky hi back and I hear an exhale from the other line.

His words started to pour out as if they'd been saved up for a while.

"Look Dream, I know you probably hate me and want to yell at me right now but please let me explain. This month has felt like hell and I haven't been able to forgive myself for what I did to you. You're too good for me and knowing that I hurt you haunts me at night. You're such a pure and kind soul and I don't know what I could've done to even have you treat me so good. I know you probably won't eve-"

"Why'd you do it?" I interrupted.

"What?"

"Why'd you have to kiss him George? Was I not enough for you?"

"Don't be ridiculous."

"You're saying all of these things about how much you regret hurting me, then why'd you do it in the first place? Were you just not going to tell me if I wouldn't have seen you two?"

Silence was all that could be heard from the other line.

"I trusted you George and you pull something like this? You have made me feel like shit this past month and you didn't even have the decency to reach out. I know I've been "m.i.a" this past month but I thought I'd at least see messages from you when I picked my phone back up. I really should hate you right now George but the worst part of this all is that I can't. I hate myself for it but I am still so in love with you. I miss what we were before all of this and I miss the way you made me feel. When I was with you George, it felt like nothing else could hurt me; like we were the only two people on earth. It hurts knowing that you could so easily give your love to someone else behind my back."

"Dream, I thought about you every day. I promise you when I say this, that kiss meant nothing. If I could go back in time and take it back, I would. You mean so much to me Dream and there has not been a minute that has went by that I'm not missing what we had. I miss our secret dates and the way you would hug me and put you chin on my head, I miss the dumb pictures we would take whenever we were together, I miss the way we would sneak into each others rooms as if we were little teenagers sneaking away from our parents, I miss your songs for me and the way you would glance at me and smile when you sang. I look at our old pictures all the time and feel tears fill up my eyes because I know how badly I messed things up between us. I haven't stopped loving you Clay."

I could hear his voice begin to go shaky and it made my eyes start to water as well.

"Why'd you take so long to talk to me again?" I said as a fill of the silence.

"I didn't know if you wanted to hear from me anymore. I thought it might be worse if I reached out."

"I'm not saying that this is making it much better but I don't mind hearing your voice, you know?"

"I didn't know, I'm sorry."

"So what were you trying to do with this phone call George?" I ask with a sigh.

"I just needed to tell you that I was sorry. I needed to tell you that I love you. I needed to tell you that I know that I messed up and I regret it."

The call falls into a quiet scene and I can feel the tension between the two phones. I didn't know what to say and I could tell that George was waiting for a response from me.

"George, you know I love you but I can't trust that you'll love me back. I want to trust you but when I did, you decided to do what you did." I reply

"Then please give me a chance to gain back that trust. I miss you; I miss my Dream." He says with a lower pitched voice

"I got to go George, text me whenever you want I guess." I interrupt before he says anything else.

"I-Fine I'll talk to you soon."

"Bye George" I move the phone from my cheek and click the red End Call button. I throw my back onto my bed and just stare at my roof. My mind feels like it's spiraling and I felt like there was something that's making fun of me for answering his call; giving him access to come back into my life.

I throw my phone off my bed which caused a loud bang sound to fill the room.

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Author's Note:
I am so sorry for not posting in TWO WEEKS!! I have been really busy with finals and other stuff at home and I haven't really had time to write. I will go back to posting on my usual schedule next week so expect a chapter on Monday!