Hiraeth

14

My heart froze.

"It was a few months after I broke up with my boyfriend." She continues before I can even say anything. She starts to sob again, barley able to get the demonizing words out of her mouth between her heavy breaths. And when she speaks, her voice is in a high-pitch, "It was.. it was one of his friends. And he knew about it"

She is now drenched in tears trying to hold them back but failing at it. I struggled to find words to say so I just pull her closer to my body.

"Sage, I would never ever do that to you, do you hear me?" I say wanting to make sure I would never hurt her like that.

Shit no wonder she always got scared when I came closer to her.

She nods and doesn't say anything else. My heart breaks to know this happened to her. I don't even know her that well but I have so much hatred building up in my body right now towards her ex.

She starts to speak again but stammers in-between her words, "I never thought something like that would ever happen to me. Look at my body. I have nothing on me that is pleasing to guys. But it still happened. An- and now almost twice" She says grabbing handfuls of my shirt unable to control her shaky and sorrow body.

I never thought my heart could break for someone I don't know that well the way it just did. I don't say anything due to my loss of words, but I pull her closer to me if that is even possible and kiss the top of her head. Nobody should have to go through that. Why the fuck did her jackass boyfriend even let his friend do that to her? I want to ask her what his name is so I can hunt him down and hurt him but I know I can't and right now all she needs is some comfort.

She continues to cry into my shirt for another 20 minutes before her breathing slows down and eventually falls asleep. I am unable to fall asleep for a couple more hours replaying everything that happened in my mind until my eyes become so heavy and fall asleep.

But I don't get that much sleep. I am woken up by a sound coming from the bathroom. My eyes open and adjust to the natural light shining in. I look at the time and see that it is 6:00 and notice that Sage is no longer sleeping next to me. I jump out of bed and go to the bathroom at what sounds like her throwing up. When I get to the bathroom I run over to her and pull back her hair as she hurls into the toilet.

She sobs.

"I-I'm sorry" She says

"No baby. It's not your fault. Just let it all out." I say rubbing her back.

Once she is finished I bring her over to the couch and go the kitchen to get a glass of water and a napkin to wipe her down in. When I reach her again I see her shirt is stained with throw-up.

"Drink this water. I am going to get you a new shirt." I say as I put the glass of water in her hands. I run to my room because it is closer and I don't want to leave her alone for too long. I grab one of my black t-shirts and go back to the living room. I take the glass from her hands and set it on the coffee table I am sitting on. I lift her arms and take off the shirt she was wearing. I throw it in the laundry room and slip my black shirt on her. I sit on the far end of the couch and pull her towards me. I rest her head on my lap so she has enough space to spread out her legs. I stroke her beautiful black hair and look at her swimming in my shirt. Tears trickle down her face as she keeps her eyes closed.

"It's my fault" She says, crying harder now. "It was all my fault. I'm the one who decided to go to that party, who wore tight clothes, who got drunk, who let him kiss me. I'm so stupid."

"No. Sage listen to me. This is not your fault. Don't you ever say that it was. Cole is a fucking bitch who has no respect for anyone." I say cutting her off before she continues to bash on herself.