Hiraeth

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"Fuck" I groan when the stupid fireball that just has to shine through my window blinds me.

My head is killing me. I turn my body over so I'm on my side, and reach across the bed to pull Sage closer to me so I can bury my face in her hair. But when my arm cuts through the air and lands on the bed, reality comes back to me.

I open my eyes, and stare at the empty space next to me. I roll my eyes, move my body so I'm laying on my stomach, and place a pillow on top of my head blocking out any sound or light.

The rest of the day is shit. I haven't heard or seen Sage since last night, and I can't stand it. I miss having her around the house. Her presence just made everything better. Even Miles is barley talking to me. Like god damn, I know I fucked up, but I'm doing it to protect her, why can't anyone see that.

Around dinner time, Haven walks through the door.

"How did you get in?" I ask her

"Does it matter?" She retorts back with sass

"Oh fuck, not you too" I groan, "Why can't everyone see that it's better if we stay away! She's only going to get hurt if she stays here. She might even get killed!"

"Oh quit being a baby, you know damn well that is unlikely. Sure yesterday got a little out of hand, but I know you and the boys would protect her" She says while walking into the room

I stay silent for a few seconds. I mean, I know to some degree she is right. I know I definitely would try my best to keep her safe, and I think Felix and Miles would do the same, but I don't know for certain, so it's not enough for me to only think they would.

"What the hell are you even doing here?" I ask her changing the subject

"I've come to collect the rest of Sage's things" She says already rummaging through the closet.

I silently nod a pit forming in my stomach. 

"How is she?" I hesitantly ask

"Not crying over your dumb-ass that's for sure" Haven says with so much sass I can't even tell if she's joking or not.

I just stare at her with wide eyes totally silent, unable to form any words. She doesn't say anything else to confirm or deny her previous words, she just continues to take the rest of Sage's clothes and other personal items.

I walk into the kitchen and head straight to the alcohol cabinet. I mean, shit, I thought she would be a little bit sad over me.

After only 2 sips from the bottle, Haven walks back out of the room and rolls her eyes when she sees me.

"Don't drown your sorrows with a bottle of poison" She says yanking the bottle out of my hand

"I'm not drowning my sorrows. I don't need a girl to be happy" I say rolling my eyes back at her

"You sure about that? Because we both know she isn't just a girl" She says while screwing the cap back on, "And I was joking dumbass. Of course she's not doing fine. She hasn't been able to stop crying. Because you left her, and she told me about how she opened up to you which isn't something she normally does because everyone always ends up using it against her or leaving her, hell, I'm sure she hasn't even told me some of the stuff she's told you. But you left her Leo. You're putting her through so much more pain than you can think"

I didn't think about that. She never explicitly told me that everyone in her life left her, but I should have been able to put the pieces together. And now I'm just another person added to that list. Fuck.