Don't fall in love [BOOK ONE]

The Final Chapter of Book One

Naomi's POV

When you lose someone important to you, you go through stages to forget or process that loss but those stages are just a way to stop your numbness that you feel. The feeling of emotions disappearing, the smile that you once had was gone just like the person you lost. But when you have so many emotions running through your mind and body, you feel as if you were numb your whole life. Because the most painful thing to feel is knowing  that you're never going to stop feeling that numbness and that will kill you.

But right now I'm not just numb inside, I'm dead too because pain hurts like hell and it just keeps stabbing me until I get used to it.

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I was still holding him, stroking his black hair, crying for him to come back but no. What is the point of beg and cry for someone who isn't coming back. What is the point of holding a person who can't hold you back but I don't care.

I want to look at his face a little bit more before they take me, I want to hear his voice again, I want to see his beautiful ice green eyes again, I just want my brother back.

His laugh, His smile, just everything. I want him back but he is gone, and now I have to live knowing that he isn't here anymore.

So this is pain, real pain but I realized that he is with mama now and he is in a better place. Better than here in hell.

And even if you're not here to stay, I'm happy the universe allowed your soul to stop by, Luca.

Because you deserved better. You deserved to live, smile, laugh, and have a family but it's okay, Luca.

Because I will kill that son of a bitch if it's the last thing I do.

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"Naomi," I heard Ivan's voice behind me as I looked down at my brother, "It's time to go," he said, touching my shoulder but I moved it away from him.

"Nao-," he said as I cut him off, "You have no right to touch me, look at me, you did this. You killed my brother in front of me and you think you have the right to speak to me because you don't. But listen here, I will go to Russia with you but only if you don't hurt or touch anyone that I love," I told him, still looking at Luca in my arms.

"Deal," he said

And that is when I know that I was making a deal with the devil

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A/N:

That is the end of Book One and I hope that y'all enjoyed this story.

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