𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 [𝑖.𝑚𝑖𝑦𝑎𝑚𝑢𝑟𝑎]

chapt. 19

𝙁𝙧𝙞𝙙𝙖𝙮
< 10:02 ᴀᴍ >

it's weird to think that I could've died, the thought of death is scary. But I'm alive now and thats enough is to be grateful for right, thousands of people die every single day and yet I'm still alive. I'll try my best to keep fighting.

On the topic of fighting, my legs have been so weak from laying down on this hospital bed for so long, when I get up it's like my iron drops completely and I go blind and my knees just wanna give up. It's so strange

Other than my stupid legs everything else about me is fine. My heart is beating normally for the most part, and I don't feel sick and nauseous anymore so I would like to go down to the hospital cafeteria and buy myself a coffee or something.

Oh wait that nurse is bringing me some of (favorite food) so going down there would totally defeat the purpose of her leaving.

I'll stay here I guess.

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"Y/n darling I'm back!" The nurse walks in with a paper bag with my favorite food.

"Thank you so much, seriously"

"Of course!! Now eat up, lots of people are on the waiting list for visiting you!" The nurse slightly smiles

"Will do!" I exclaim

"well I'm taking my leave, if you need me darling just ring" she smiles one more time and walks out of the room.
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Lots of people visiting me? That's interesting

I eat up all my yummy delicious scrumptious delectable amazing meal while binge watching random tlc shows on the tv hanging right in front of my bed.

Should I change or something, I bet I smell gross from not taking a shower in 5 days. I really want to but I'm to weak on my own to do it, if I even try I could hurt myself even more.

Maybe later I guess.

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"hey" miyamura says walking in the room

"You're here already??" I ask because it's only 1:23 pm

"I asked the teacher if I could leave early" he puts his bags on the sitting chair in front of my hospital bed

"You look tired" he laughs

"You try being in a hospital and not taking a shower for days" I pout

I sigh "well honestly my body is still to weak even get up and take a shower on my own" I explain to him

"I could help you" he says straight forwardly

"you? Help me" I cover my body

"That's embarrassing I'm gonna pass" I cringe

"Dont be like that Cmon let's get you undressed and I'll wash you all up" he says picking my body up

"Hey what are you??!?!?!"

"No buts"

"But"

"Unless you feel uncomfortable, then I'll stop" he looks down at me seriously

"No no I need this anyway, but you can't watch me get undressed!!"

"Fine" he sighs

He brings me over to the bathroom and sets me down and closes the door "when you're undressed and in the tub I'll come in" he yells from the outside

"Okay!" I yell back

I'm nervous

But he's my boyfriend.

I'm still nervous

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I put aside all my clothes in a messy pile and fill up the tub with soap and bubbles to cover my body and get in.

The water is so warm and nice

Argh but when I move to try and wash parts of my body it hurts so much

I should probably ask him to come inside now

Ahhh it's so embarrassing tho

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"You can come in" I yell

He walks in quietly and stares at me for a couple seconds

"Sorry, let's get you cleaned up" he grabs the bar soap and starts gently washing my skin

His touch is so warm

He's so gentle

He looks to be a little flustered though but I honestly don't blame him (lol)

"I want you to get better y/n" he says quietly as he washes my arms

"I don't like seeing you like this"

"I'm-" he cuts me off

"I know it's not your fault I just, I just want you to be by my side" he says not daring to make eye contact.

"I'll get better I promise" I smile softly

"that's all I ask for" he smiles back gently rubbing shampoo in my hair.

(Author) hey guys, sorry for not updating for 3 days, I've been feeling demotivated and I've been stressed out with lots of things but I'm trying my best to keep this on a steady pace. I hope you like this story, I'm trying my best. Anyways see you guys next chapter