𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 [𝑖.𝑚𝑖𝑦𝑎𝑚𝑢𝑟𝑎]

chapt. 23

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I successfully sneaked y/n back into the hospital with no issues and she seemed to be doing fine when I layed her down to sleep in her hospital bed. I don't want to head home, I don't wanna go to school tomorrow.

I wanna stay here with her.

But I have to get home, even if I don't want to. I have to go to school again.

I just wish I could stay there by her side.

I start to walk out the door

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"you're leaving now?" her voice stops me.

"I don't want to go"

"It's okay izumi, you should rest and head home, I'll be *cough* fine" she says

"But-"

"Rest please" her soft voice says

"take care of yourself okay?"

"I'll be alright" her last words before she turns over and heads to sleep.

"I'm sorry y/n" I whisper and head home.
———

~< timeskip: school >~

I can't stop worrying about her.

She's all I can think about.

Is she doing alright?

I just wanna be by her side.

Why did I even come here.

I'm such an idiot.

"Miyamura izumi, please pay attention" my teacher lectures

I nod and try to focus but she crowds my thoughts, the thought of her won't leave.

Lunch time finally arrives and tooru comes up to me with a concerned look on her face.

——-

"Hey man are you doing alright?" He asks

I nod.

"Are you sure?" He says

"Yeah I'm fine" I smile trying to hide the pain I'm feeling

He sighs heavily "how's y/n?"

"Yeah how's y/n?" Hori and yukis head pokes out from their tables

"sh-" I get interrupted by a phone call.

"Hey this is miyamura right?" I hear a familiar voice say.

"Yes it is, and this is?"

"Her nurse, she's, well she was doing her morning routine and we helped her like usual but her body gave up and she collapsed, she's going through surgery now instead of tomorrow but her survival rates dropped by 2%"

"2%" those numbers broke me.

I hang up the phone and look at tooru

"I gotta go right now" I start to run but he grabs my hand.

"Whats wrong why are you leaving?" He asks

"Let me go" I say

"Not until you tell me what's wrong"

"I don't have time for this" I yell

"MIYAMURA WHATS WRONG" he yells back

"Y/N'S FUCKING DYING" I scream at him.

"Right now, her body is giving up on her" my voice quites

"Just let me go"

His face is filled with shock and everyone else in the classrooms is too.

I don't care about them.

I just wanna see her, please God let her be alive, let her live. Please.

-

I run and run and run all the way to the hospital, past the front desk, past the endless hallways to her room.

Her hospital bed is empty.

It's like no one ever occupied this room.

Like her existence has been wiped.

Except for one thing

A journal, on her bedside table.

I instantly grab it and sit down.

It's a documentary of her stay here.

I flip through the countless pages.

April 1st 20xx

- today marks the first day here at this stinky hospital ( ~ ^ ~ ) I just wanna go home lol but their food isn't too bad not gonna lie and their television shows are 10/10

April 3rd 20xx

- Izumi visited me today, his presence brought me peace. A bit of hope I guess you could say. It was a great day :0

April 9th 20xx
- my body feels especially horrible today but the nurse made me the best chicken noodle soup I've ever had. God I love her.

April 15 20xx
- my adorable boyfriend started reading me this book today and his voice is so hot, don't tell him I said that. Izumi if you read this you didn't ^^

April 20th 20xx
- my friends all visited me today and we played board games and took amazing photos, ahem the photographer was me, ik I'm so great like that. It was so fun and they shared all their fun stories from school.

April 31st 20xx
- what's wrong with my body? I can barely even get up anymore.

I skip a lot of pages to the last one she wrote.

May 29th 20xx
- dear izumi, I thought I'd dedicate this last page to you. I bet if you ever get your hands on this it's for a grave reason, well Thank you, for being the person I can love in these last days of mine. You've made living something I looked forward to every single day. And for that I'm glad. I'm glad I got to meet you and all the wonderful things that you are. If something happens to me I don't want you to spend your life hung up on me okay? Love again. Smile again for me okay? I'll look over you always. You know I'll always love you."

I start to cry.

"Don't give up on me y/n" I whisper under my breathe as I clutch the journal to my chest.

The doctor burts open the door.