𝗮𝗹𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 [𝑖.𝑚𝑖𝑦𝑎𝑚𝑢𝑟𝑎]

chapt. 21

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I've gotten so used to this hospital room that I'm not used to what the outside looks like other than sunsets and sunrises.

It's so weird, but in a way it's sort of peaceful just being here.

And my friends and family plus my boyfriend visit me every day if they can.

I'm so happy. Izumi's visiting me today.

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"You seem to be in a happy mood today" the nurse says

"Izumi's visiting me today" I can't stop smiling

"He's been so busy with schools and exams, we are third years after all." I say

"Well I'm glad you're happy"

*cough cough*

"Mhm" I barely make out.

"Y/n" the nurse says

"We have very important news to tell you tonight" she adds

"We're gonna contact your mom so she can here it too, please rest your body and take the medications we have for you"

"Will do ma'am!" I try to say without coughing

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I hate to admit it but my heart conditions haven't been getting better. My body feels so frail and I now need assistance to even move

It is stressful, being like this. But I know that there's still a chance everything will go back to normal and this is all temporary.

I look down at the bracelet Hori made me

"Fight!"

I'm really trying.

When everyone's gone and it's just me at night I cry. I cover my mouth when nurses pass my room so they don't suspect anything.

I made a promise to him, I'm not breaking it.

< timeskip to: miyamura visiting >

I drink my water and write down in my journal for the day. I've been doing this for two months now. Something to look back on or for 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒 to look back on.

I sigh and put my journal down and patiently look at the door waiting for him to open it.

I even look at my phone to see if he texted

"I'm on my way y/n :)" He typed

I'm glad.

I can hear the sound of my heartbeat.

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"Y/n I'm here!" His soft smile lights up the room

"Welcome back" I smile

He runs over to me "y/n, what's wrong"

"What do you mean?"

"You've gotten so pale, like the color has been drained from your face. And you don't look to be doing alright. What has happened the 4 days I've been gone?" He tilts his head and asks me worriedly

"I'm fine, don't worry about it" I smile

"Dont lie to me please"

"sorry I just don't want to you worry"

"Just keep fighting for me okay?" He kisses my forehead

"Want me to continue the story I was reading you last time?" He asks

"Oh could you please" I try to hold in my excitement
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It's now late at night and both Izumi and my mom are patiently sitting in the lounging chairs in front of my hospital bed. They're waiting for the big news.

I just hope it's not something like "you have six months to live"

Eh it's probably not that

Maybe they're gonna prescribe different medications to me or something

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"Oh hello miyamura. Are you here to hear the news too?" The nurse asks

"Mhm" he nods

"Well" she looks down seriously and sits on the edge of my bed to face all of us

"Y/n you have to get 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑟𝑦."

Those six words killed me

She continues "and the survival rate for it is only 8%"

It's like I've been stabbed multiple times, am I gonna die? My eyes start to tear up.

"If you don't get this surgery y/n you could die in just a week from now."

The room is quite. Not even my mom or izumi can make out any words

"I-I'll get the surgery" I try to hold in the tears developing in my eyes.

The nurse nods and leaves us to talk.

I look down, what do I say?

I don't wanna die.

The tears start falling down my face.

I can't hold them back anymore

the two hug me tightly, like they're about to let me go.

And together we all cry.