night souls and day hearts (girl x enby)

chap 9 old experiences new thoughts

She was tiered when she arrived at her house. She entered the kitchen and opened the fridge. She blinged away the cold air that hit her face and scanned the shelves. She didnt see anything eatable, although the shelves were filled with food. She ended up grabbing a whole cucumber and walking out of the kitchen.

She took a bit of the vegetable as she climed the stairs. She threw herself on her bed and took another bite then placed the vegetable down on her bed sink table and grabbed her phone on the table from where it had been charging all evening. She didnt have any notifications, it made her sad, she had been hoping for a text from Robin.

She turned off her phone screen and placed it back on the table.

She rolled onto her back and closed her eyes, she thought abou Robin. She saw their face in her mind. She missed them. Her mind wandered, remembering the first times she saw them. First she bumped into them, they looked so angry then, then she introduced herself, they were standoffish, then there was that fight in the cafeteria. She had been scared seeing Robin be so angry.

Her mind then wandered to what had happened after, she remembered their hand hitting the locker next to her head, and she remembered the look in their eyes, and the tone of their voice. She felt a a feeling grow in her lower stomach as she thought of the way Robin had looked at her.

She snapped out of it and blushed furiously at where her thoughts had been wandering.

Then she thought of when the two of them had been in Robin's room, when she had stood right behind them and said their name. She remembered how they they shuttered at her voice. She wonders how they had felt then. She wondered how they had felt after the fight in the corridor too. She wondered if Robin thought of her like this. She blushed furiously.

She remembered the drawing of her on their wall and that their mom had said that they were obsessed with her.
She wondered again what Robin thought of her, she wanted Robin to think of her..... She wanted Robin.

The statement in her mind made her blush even more. She wondered why the thoughts of Robin wouldnt leave. She analyzed her situation and flipped over and buried her face in her pillow as a further thought hit her.

There was no way she was really this thirsty for them. There was no way she felt like this. She had prided herself over not obsessing over people but now Robin was all she could think about.

Everytime she listened to the thoughts about them, the thoughts escalated so quickly. No matter how much she tried to push Robin out of her mind, she always ended up with the image of Robin on top of her in her mind.

She buried her face deeper into her pillow, it didnt help.

She shot up from her bed and paced her room, the thoughts were much less intrusive when her eyes were open. She looked out of her window, at the tree in her backyard. It was lit by the moon and looked quite magical, the image of Charlie's glowing hand appeared in her mind. She glanced at her own hand. She wanted to weald light like that so badly, she betted that it would feel warm, or maybe cold, whe had no idea what light would feel like.

She sat down on her bed and picked up her phone. She opened a streaming service app, she started scrolling through the options as she grabbed her head phones from her bedside table and turned them on, she put them onto her head clumsily and saw the 'device connected' notification pop up on her screen.

It only took about a minute of scrolling to find a movie that didnt seem too boring. She pressed play and saw the loading symbol spin on her phone screen for a second before the movie starred.

She watched the movie for about a minute before she got bored, it really wasnt a compelling movie. Amelia decided that it would work pretty well as background noise.

She got up and walked over to her desk and sat down. She removed a sketchbook from her backpack which leaned agains a table leg.

She opened it and flipped to an empty page, most of the pages she flipped through were filled with unintelligible doodles.

She pitched up a pen and placed it to the page. The sound of the movie still sounded in her ears but gave her no inspiration.

She sat for a while with the pen on the page untill she let back in the thoughts of Robin she had previously blocked out. She started drawing them. She specifically reminded them in the black shirt and the wight skirt so she drew them in that outfit. The drawing was turning out better than expected. It actually looked like them. She was impressed with her own work, she wasnt as good as Robin at drawing.

She thought that if she drew more or took classes she could be as good as them. Maybe they could teach her to draw better. Maybe help with perspective, posing, anatomy.
A bright blush fell on Amelia's cheeks as she had just imaged Robin showing her their anatomy. She shook her head violently. She had not previously thought herself capable of such scandalous thoughts.

She glanced at her phone screen where the movie was still playing. She looked at the clock in the corner, it read '01:15am'. Amelia didnt realize that it had gotten so late.

Her parents were still not home. She remembered that when her dad used to be gone atleast 24 hours when he had to come to the meetings all the way from the city. She felt even worse about leaving early.

She turned off the movie on her phone and took off her headphones.

She flopped onto her bed and closed her eyes. Her thoughts were noticeably slower now, she was drowsy and it did not take long for her to drift off even though she was still wearing her clothes.