Cobra Kai Imagines//Hawk//Jacob Bertrand

Deadly Secrets (request) (emotional)

Warning: this contains stuff such as depression, mental illness, and emotional damage/suicidal thoughts. Don't read if you get disturbed easily.

Request: asryujdss

Imagine: You have lost everyone that has come close to you. This happened over 12 times. And this time you lost your best friend. This may be your breaking point. Until someone comes in and changes it.

It had been weeks sense you lost your best friend and it has took you to your breaking point. You wanted to die because everyone else you loved is gone in such a world. But you always had a smile on your face pretending you were okay but you weren't. So you starved yourself and to stop you from crying or feeling anything you drank some alcohol and that usually did it for you.

You tried to starve yourself by throwing up your food and you became so skinny to the point where you had to wear long sleeves to make it not noticeable because you didn't want to draw attention. You were broken but no one noticed. Until now...

"Hey (Y/N) Moon is having a party at her house, everyone is going to be there you should come." Miguel said walking up to you. You didn't want to but you couldn't turn it down. It was Moon so you couldn't. She was a close friend.

So you went and when you get into the house you see everyone you know around talking and like your classic self you mostly just stay outta it. Not really the social type. "Hey" you turn and it was Hawk walking towards you and you jump back in fear. "uh hey" you and Hawk used to date and had a really great thing going but after what happened with your best friend and with everything else you needed some time for yourself. Without anyone else. You felt like you just needed to be alone.

*SCREAMING* *GLASS EVERYWHERE* "MOOM!"

"Hey you okay?" Hawk asked putting a hand on your shoulder but you jump back in fear. He just stared at you and sighed. You scoot away startled flinching. "You haven't been talking" "Hawk you know I dont like to talk to people" "yeah but their our friends who you used to ALWAYS talk to. You haven't been the same since-" "I know Hawk. Just drop it okay?" You said sounding irritated. He just looks at you concerned but he understands and he looks away continuing to stand next to you. "I just want you to talk to me." he said feeling like he was gonna break. "I want things to go back to the way they were. I miss you." he whispered. "Hawk it's not a good time." you said shutting him down. "Just leave me alone." you said walking away.

While Sam and Tori were battling outside you had sat at a table with some people who were eating food. You didn't want to people to think anything by not eating so you grabbed some food and everything was okay. Everyone was eating and you ate here and there to make it look like you were eating but really you were secretly spitting it back out when no one was looking. But Hawk noticed and he was standing next to his Cobra Kai friends and you turn to him and he's staring at you with this look of what is she doing?

You make eye contact with him knowing you got caught and you looked away trying to shake it off like nothing ever happened.

"Stay awake!" *BLOOD EVERYWHERE* *LOOKING AT THE FLOOR*

Pretty soon you get uncomfortable and had the thought of going to the bathroom. Hawk was still standing there watching you but you tried not to look at him. You just get up and walk to Moon and told her you were gonna go home. "Thank you Moon the food was good. But uh I should get home." you said hugging her. "But it's barley over." she said upset. You look at Hawk and he has a cup in his hand still looking at you. "I just need to get outta here." you mumbled. Moon understood "Hey. You know just because were on different sides doesn't mean you can't talk to me. I know things have been hard but-you shouldn't go through it alone." she said smiling. You loved how generous she was and you nodded your head. Hawk knew something was wrong. So you walked out and he set down his drink and followed you.