The Swan Twins / New Moon

Five

"I never wanted to have a party."

Elena was staring at a painting across the room. She wasn't admiring it, the painting was just convenient for her to stare at as she let her thoughts wander. How could she have let this happen? 

Elena wasn't pissed at anyone but herself. Maybe if she hadn't let her sister open their gift then everything would've been fine and neither girls would've had to have been stitched up.

"Its not your fault." She overheard Carlisle tell Bella. Elena turned to look at them, Bella was doing fine with the blood and the glass whereas Elena was terrified. 

"Jasper hasn't been away from human blood as long as the rest of us." Elena looked down and frowned. Jasper was fine when it came to Elena, then again Elena never bled in front of him. 

"How do you do it?" Bella kept her arm held out for Carlisle.

"Years and years of practice." His glorious smile appeared and Elena felt a bit better. Carlisle wasn't mad at Jasper. Neither were either of the twins.

"Did you ever think of, just doing it the easy way?" Bella asked the man standing before her.

Elena cringed at the sight of the thread going through her sister's arm. She made a fake throw up noise and turned away from the two. This caused Carlisle to crack a smile.

"No. I knew who I wanted to be. I wanted to help people. It brings me happiness. Even if I am damned regardless." Carlisle spoke to Bella.

"Damned? Like Hell?" Bella asked looking up to the man. This gained Elena's attention. 

Carlisle didn't speak as he looked up at Bella. He looked back down to her arm and then felt Elena's stare. He looked up at her and she had a sad look on her face as she realized about how Carlisle felt about himself. Elena stood up not breaking eye contact with him and sat next to her sister.

"Carlisle, you out of all people, couldn't be damned. You may think you're a monster, but we don't. Your family doesn't either. Without you there wouldn't be a Cullen family. It's impossible." Elena said with a straight face.

"Thank you Elena. The two of you have always been very gracious about us." He looked at Bella for a moment.

"So that's it? Thats why he won't change me?" Bella asked Carlisle.

"Bella, Imagine the situation in reverse." Carlisle finished working on Bella's arm and started to fix up Elena's, "If you believed as Edward does, could you take away his soul?" He asked her. 

After both girls were cleaned up they realized its best for them to head home. Edward took Bella but Rosalie took Elena. Elena was hurt but she knew that in this moment of time, Jasper hated himself. 

"Are you okay El?" Rosalie asked when they parked outside of the Swan residence. 

"Not at all Rose. Jasper hates himself and don't try to tell me he doesn't because I know him too well already." Elena looked up at the Vampire next to her who returned her stare but looked away. "I just wish he could tell me and let me try to help him or something, but he won't. Talk to him for me will you Rose? Please?" Rosalie just looked at the girl and nodded.

"Thank you Rosalie." Elena leaned over and hugged her. "I love you."

Rosalie sighed and hugged the human back softly. "I love you." 

"Thank you for today Rose. Tell everyone I said thank you. It really was a great day." Rose nodded with a soft smile and Elena got out of the car and walked towards the front door. She turned around and waved to the blonde headed girl before heading inside. 

Bella must've been asleep because the house was quiet. Charlie had to work but she knew He'd offer to do something with the girls another day and Elena was fine with that. 

Elena headed up to her room and when she had closed the door and turned around, Jasper was sitting on her bed. "Jas?"

The boy looked up at her with a sad smile. He knew he had hurt her feelings. He could feel it. "Hey El." Elena just nodded and grabbed a pillow that was on a chair. 

"Hey?" Elena threw the pillow at him. "That's all you have to say!" She yelled softly not wanting to wake up her sister. 

Jasper appeared in front of her and pulled her into a hug. "I'm sorry. I know you're upset with me but I couldn't look at you after what I did." 

"Really Jasper? You didn't hurt or kill my sister. Edward threw her into a wall. You just smelt the blood that's it. She's not mad or hurt because of you and you want to blame yourself?" Jasper ran his hand over the stitches in Elena's shoulder.

"You were thrown too." He stated.

"Oh really? I didn't know." She rolled her eyes. "Jasper nothing is your fault and you know that." Jasper stayed silent as he looked away from his mate. 

"Look, I'm going to get ready for bed, so you can either lay down with me or sit around and mope. But no one is angry at you Jas. No one." Elena placed her hands on his shoulders and kissed his cheek before giving him a small smile and walking away to her restroom. 

When she came back out dressed for bed Elena noticed Jasper had something in his hand. "What's that?" Elena looked over his shoulder and noticed its the picture of the couple. "How nice." Elena took the picture and tacked it onto her wall before climbing into bed and patting the spot next to her. Jasper stayed on top of the blankets not wanting to have her stay cold. He played with her hair and caressed her face until she fell asleep.

"I love you." He whispered before kissing her forehead and leaving the residence.