Now I'm Just Numb

Chapter 1

Patrick's POV

I feel so cold and distant. I rode with Elisa in the ambulance. They pulled her out from it in a heart beat leaving me staring after. Now I'm waiting to see her after the surgery. But there was so much blood.

We were on our way to get Declan from my mother's house. Thank god he wasnt in the car.It keeps repaying in my head.

I said something that didn't make her happy and a fight started, what was it about? I haven't a clue. All I remember is taking my eyes off the road for a split second and bang.

Waking up was strange, the cold air kind of brought me back. But Elisa was stuck under the seat and had to be pryed out. Seeing her like that...

My left hand won't stop shaking, Elisa will be fine. There's no need to upset yourself. I take off my fedora so my hands have something to mess with.

Why are they taking so long, its been at least an hour.

"Patrick!"

I look up to see Pete run into the waiting room. I stand and he engulfs me in a hug. Breathing in his smell which is all too familiar calms me slightly.

I pull away and sit back down. "Have you heard anything yet?" He asks, tone laced with worry. "Nope," I cut him short and grit my teeth.

"Joe just texted, him and Andy are on their way," Pete says and puts his phone back into his pocket.

I put back on my fedora and stand up. Staying still is out of question and I start to pace. Ahh what's taking them so long?

"Patrick sit down, save your energy. You don't want to be cranky for when Elisa gets out." Pete says in a soothing tone. I listen and sit back down beside him.

"Don't worry," "I'm not worried," I lie. "And don't lie," he adds which almost makes me smile.

"Thanks for coming, I would've gone crazy here without a familiar face," I admit. This makes Pete smile "You know me and the guys'll always be here for you."

I nod and notice my hand shaking. Quickly I tuck it under my leg and see my left leg is bouncing up and down. Pete may have calmed my mind but my body is just a bag of nerves.

"Hay I'm going to grab a coffee, do you want one?" Pete offers while standing up. I nod in response and watch him leave.

A cold feeling seeps inside me. Then a doctor comes around the corner and calls "Mr Stump."

I jump up and half run over to him. I can't read his expression. Oh no.

"Ah Mr. Stump, your wife is fine," warm relief fills me. I go to walk passed him and he puts a hand out to stop me-what? "Sorry but I was asked to give you this note and keep you from seeing Ms. Yoa," he hands me the note.

-Patrick

The crash has made me realise a lot of stuff about my life. And I haven't been happy for so long. I don't think we should see each other.

I'm divorcing you.

"What this can't be right," I whisper as I reread the note. He grimances "I'm sorry, but it's true." He says and walks away leaving me standing in the middle of the room staring after him in silence.

My legs go weak and I fall not caring to steady myself. I real my body shake uncontrollablely.

The last thing I see before I black out is Pete dropping the coffee cups and running over to me.

This is chapter 1! Tell me what you think and if I should continue!