You're not so bad ~ (merdisson)

Chapter 4: behind closes doors

Merediths POV:

My whole body was pumping with adrenaline making me very excited and impulsive. I reached out for Addisons hand to lead her into the hospital but she resisted it. I shook it off and continued to bounce through the doors on my way up to the pit where Bailey had paged me.
"Wait for me in the on call room on the O.R floor" i smiled before walking away to see what Bailey wanted. Addison nodded back enthusiastically before turning away in the opposite direction.
"You paged me doctor Bailey" i called walking into a very quiet ER.
"What on earth are you doing here dressed like that" she asked confused.
"I was on a date" i blushed thinking about Addison upstairs waiting for me.
"Whatever , i just needed you to confirm that your on board for my chief resident application" she asked still frowning at me.
"Haha yeah of course i am. You'll make a great chief resident" "is that all?"
"Yes. Go and get some sleep grey before the drama of the night begins" she said gesturing me away.
I giggled to myself knowing that I wouldn't be doing much sleeping in that on call room.
"Something funny grey" Bailey asked sternly.
"No ma'am" i replied before hurrying to the elevator.

I arrived at the third floor and as the elevator doors opened i could see the on call room at the end of the corridor. This was it. I was going to do it. Like i said i had no idea what i felt or what was going to happen next but I didn't care. I was exhilarated and i wasn't going to wait until the high had past and i had regrets.

The door creaked open a little as i twisted the metal handle. The room lit up slightly from the light outside in the corridor. I stepped inside and shut the door behind me.
"Finally, i thought you'd left me for Bailey" a voice giggled.
"Now why would i do that. Your so much more fun than Bailey, but don't tell her i said that" i whispered walking over to the bed.
I could faintly see the outline of her face in the darkness of the room. I leant over to a lamp on the table beside the beds and switched it on.
"I missed you" i whispered lying gently down next to her. I didn't just mean in the past 20 minutes tho i meant since that day in the NICU when she kissed me. Our relationship had been so fragile after that and i longed to have her around me and to see her face every morning ready to greet me even tho it was painful.
"I missed you too" she breathed back shuffling closer to to my head on the pillow.

( third person/ no ones POV) :

"Lets get you out of those damp clothes shall we" Addison smirked as she leant over Meredith who was breathing deeply. Addison placed her lips onto Merediths and began to kiss her softly. She pecked along Merediths bottom lip biting down ever so slightly causing Meredith to wince. She moved her lips to Merediths neck where she began to suck gently being careful not to leave any evidence of herself on Merediths skin despite how much she wanted too. Meredith breathed heavily as her head arched back sinking into the pillow.
Addison moved down to her chest kissing softly along Merediths collar bone. She wrapped her hands under Merediths back and twirled her finger around the lace of Merediths navy dress. Her fingers tugged, barely loosening the knot in the fabric. "Damb it your impossible to get into" Addison remarked.
"Well i guess you'll have to try harder" Meredith teased smirking at the red head.
Addison grabbed a hold of Merediths legs and pulled her forward so that she was closer to Addisons waist. Meredith felt her hips being spun around until she found herself leaning into Addisons chest facing away from her. Addison began to undo the dress again this time with better access. She pulled the knot apart and let it hang loosely down Merediths back. "There we go".

Softly Addison grazed Merediths bare back with the tip of her finger. She swirled it around in little circles causing Meredith to shudder. Addison bent her head down slightly to where Merediths shoulders were and she began to peck them with sweet kisses. Merediths hand reached behind her head and gripped onto the back of Addisons hair running her fingers through it. She felt the velvety locks slip through easily as she closed her eyes to take in the feeling of Addisons mouth on her body.
Addison looped her fingers under the thin straps of the dress and pulled it off. She gazed in awe of the young interns beauty radiating before her. Her mouth dropped slightly as her eyes twinkled.
"That feels nice" Addison smiled reaching up and touching Merediths hand that was running through her hair. Meredith let go and lay down on the bed in her underwear with Addison on top of her. "Your turn" Meredith stated pulling off Addisons shirt. She tugged the material over Addisons head and threw it across the room. It fell in a heap next to the table. "We wont be needing that" she said looking the attending up and down. Her hands moved down to the rim of Addisons skirt and she pulled it off easily over her legs. They were so long and smooth and just how Meredith imagined them to be.
As the two women lay there undressed they smiled at each other taking in each others beauty. "I cant believe I'm here with you right now" Addison exclaimed.
"Me neither" Meredith replied stretching her arm around Addisons back trying to unclasp her bra.
She felt it click as the material fell down. She pulled the straps off of Addisons shoulders stroking them slightly as she did so. "That tickles" Addison giggled before removing Merediths bra. They threw them in the same direction as her t shirt, skirt and dress watching the clothes pile up ontop of each other.

Addison stared at Merediths bare chest with longing as she bent down and kissed along her collar bone again but this time kissing lower. She kissed across both Merediths breasts gently as Meredith grazed her finger up and down Addisons waist. Meredith moaned in pleasure as she worked her finger into Addisons panty line. She stroked along it teasingly as Addison sucked down Merediths torso. Everything was so perfect. They both wanted each other so badly and they weren't sure if they were going to be able to wait much longer.

"Well aren't you going to take them off" Addison smirked moving back up to Merediths lips and kissing her more passionately. She breathed in Merediths rich perfume allowing it to consume her.
Meredith hesitated for a second as her hand grazed Addisons inner thigh. Addison moved a piece of Merediths wavy hair out of her face and kissed her. "Its ok" she said.
Meredith smiled and continued to rub the inside of Addisons leg. She turned her finger into the line of Addisons lace underwear. Merediths hand tugged them off slowly pulling them over Addisons legs.
Like the rest of their clothes she tossed them onto the pile in the corner of the room as she stared at the naked attending before her.
She was beyond perfect. Every curve, every freckle, every part of her was perfect. "Your beautiful" Meredith whispered into her ear.
"Your not so bad yourself" Addison teased.
"Hey!" Meredith laughed turning Addison over so that she was underneath her. "We're going to regret this you know" Meredith sighed.
"Only if someone finds out" Addison smirked.

She wasn't afraid anymore, of what might happen between them. Addison knew that they both shared a mutual attraction towards each other that was distracting them from work, she knew that they found pleasure in each others company, her feelings were an over reaction to other problems going on in her life. It was a crush. Nothing more. They would live their lives normally as if nothing ever happened, because that's all it was. Sex. Right?

Meredith looked back longingly barely being able to control her desire for this women. 'Just once' she thought. 'Just once to stop these stupid urges and then ill be fine. We'll go back to normal and i can move on with my life, but for now I'm going to enjoy it. I had her in my arms. finally'. Meredith bit her lip as she looked down into Addisons shimmering gaze.
Addison pulled off the remainder of Merediths underwear as she stroked her finger along Merediths area. Meredith moaned in pleasure as she gripped onto the back of Addisons thick glossy hair for support.
The two women remained like this for some time teasing each other until they couldn't take it anymore. Meredith pinned Addison down by her wrists as she worked her mouth all the way down from Addisons lips to the inside of her thighs. The feeling of her tongue turning Addison on even more.
Every touch was like magic. She had never felt so safe in the arms of anyone before and not only that but Meredith was rather skilled at making Addison feel amazing.

She pushed her fingers inside Addison pulsating them. Addison gripped the pillow with her nails as her mouth gaped open. "Meredith" she moaned coming down from the wave of pleasure that she had just received.
Addison breathed slowly taking in the warm air of the dim room. She could feel her brow sweating and her cheeks blushing. "That was amazing" she gasped stroking the side of the interns face.
The younger woman smiled at her lying down next to her on the small bed. 'That was is' Meredith thought, 'no strings attached. I wanted her. She wanted me and now we had each other and that was that'.
"We should probably get dressed and head back out before anyone comes in here to sleep" Meredith suggested.
"The doors locked grey and besides I'm exhausted" Addison grunted.
She was half asleep by this point but she turned over slightly burying her head into the beige pillow. She wrapped her arm around Merediths torso trapping her under the duvet. Naked.

Meredith couldn't help but smile at the tired woman breathing slowly beside her with her eyes fluttering shut. "Ok we can stay for a little while" Meredith whispered kissing Addison lightly on the cheek before closing her eyes and falling asleep next to her.

They lay peacefully in their own little fantasy bubble. 'why not?' Meredith thought. 'Why not stay for a few more minutes' .

(Hi guys its the author here. I know this chapter was a bit different to the others and I'm sorry if its not very good but its my first time really writing one of these. I have more chapters coming so stay tuned and comment some ideas☺️)