You're not so bad ~ (merdisson)

Chapter 6: Butterflies

Addisons POV:

It had been 3 weeks since Meredith and i parted ways. We acknowledged each other in the corridors bowing our heads with a brief nod. She had been hanging around with Derek again which bothered me. He broke her heart yet she still drifted back to him. I understood that she cared for him but i didn't think she would forgive him after lying to her for so long. Well it was none of my business so i tried to ignore it. Tried and failed.

"Morning doctor grey" i murmured in the same monotone voice as every morning. "Morning doctor shepherd" she echoed. Mine and Dereks
relationship had been improving slightly. We actually talked like civil human beings at work along with cooking dinner for each other over a pleasant conversation. I could tell he was trying his best to make our marriage work but i wasn't sure how long he would keep it up for. I wasn't sure how long I could keep it up for.

"DOCTOR MONTGOMERY-SHEPHERD!" a voice bellowed. "We have a pregnant woman with multiple traumas to the abdomen. Shes unconscious and her bp is 90 over 60 and dropping."
"Im coming!" I yelled from the end of the pit as April wheeled in a blood stained woman lying half dead on a gurney.
"The foetus is in distress i have to get it out now or it will die" i rushed placing an emphasis on the word will.
We rushed her up to O.R 2 and i scrubbed in quickly before the nurses gowned me. I stood over her and turned to boki

"10 blade"

The surgery was successful. Thankfully both mom and baby survived. I sent the baby off to the NICU to be put in an incubator before closing the mother up and transporting her to the ICU.
"Gosh that was crazy" April squealed on a slight high from the adrenaline that was pumping through her.
I remembered the rush of being a resident. The Passion for surgery, the competition, the thrill of cutting. I chuckled to myself before taking off my scrub cap and heading out.

"Addison" a voice called.
I looked up to see a thin blonde intern glaring at me.
"Oh Meredith hey" i replied, awkwardness lacing my words.
"Tough surgery?" She inquired standing up straight.
"You could say that, yes" i smiled briefly. "You had a surgery grey?" I asked confused as to why her hair and makeup were so perfect for a round the clock intern.
"No. I haven't been in an O.R in a week" she explained picking at her fingernails clearly indicating the tension and trying to ignore it. I don't know how it was so easy for her to ignore me. In my case it was eating me up inside. I couldn't stop thinking about that night in the on call room and the feeling of her touch all over my naked body.
'Stop it Addison, your supposed to be doing your job not crushing on your husbands intern ex girlfriend who happens to be your Student' i yelled at myself internally.
"That sucks" i say dragging myself from my thoughts.
"Yeah" she mumbled beginning to scurry off in the other direction.

"I have a hysterectomy tomorrow if you want in" i called after her almost desperately.
"Really, id love that" Her eyes lit up at the sound of surgery. She always did that when she was excited about something, it was so beautiful.

The day was slow and boring after that so i became quite agitated.
I saw Derek talking with burke about a craniotomy he was planning for this afternoon.
"Anything interesting" i asked approaching him.
"The usual" he replied barely giving me a second glance.
I couldn't take this i was so bored so i left.

Merediths POV:

I really missed her. Every day was the same now as before she arrived but it felt different. Wrong. I went to work, met up with Cristina and had a coffee with Derek before heading to the pit on Baileys orders. Honestly It felt like i was on pause and only Addison could press play.

It may sound stupid but she was exciting and different which is maybe exactly what i needed in my life. I had followed the rules and done everything i was expected to for so long. I wondered if it was to please my mother or to make up for the fact that my father abandoned me but apart from my few drunken years at college i had done everything right. Id been safe.