You're not so bad ~ (merdisson)

Chapter 9: "push one of epi"

Addisons POV:

Everything hurt. I could hear muffled sounds of shouting and beeping. My entire body screamed with pain as i stared up at the ceiling.
I could feel a burning sensation in my leg and it was heavy and unmovable. "Addison!" A voice called, then a familia face appeared blurry above me.  It was Richard.

"Shes not responding" he called bustling about beside me. I could see faded outlines of people hurrying around me as i realised what had happened. I was in a car crash!

Merediths POV:

My heat stopped. Did i just hear that correctly. Addison! I stood there frozen for a second blocking out the entire world until alex brought me back to my senses. "Mer!" He screamed shaking me vigorously.
I immediately raced into the trauma room where Bailey had taken her and looked down to see her lifeless and bloody on the table. "Oh my..." i covered my mouth and ran out of the room.
I managed to get to the bathroom in time before throwing up in the toilet. I leant against the door as my legs gave up refusing to move.

'How had this happened? What if she...' i gulped 'died!'

I couldn't bare the thoughts that were infecting my head. It made me physically sick with fear. 'I have to do something' i thought using every ounce of strength in me to push myself off of the floor.
"Mer?" A voice asked concerned.
I knew that voice.
"Cristina?" I replied unlocking the latch on the bathroom door.
"What happened. Are you ok?"
I knew that even tho we were fighting she still cared for me deeply so i let her in.
She pushed open the door of the stall and sat beside me on the floor.
"Its Addie, shes" i took a deep breath "Shes in the hospital"
"Well yeah obviously she works here"

Sometimes I wonder about that girl.

"No i mean shes not here as a doctor. Shes a patient" i sobbed.
"Oh my what happened" she gasped.
"Car accident" i said bluntly. " And i had only been with her 2 hours ago, oh god what if i did something that made her get into her car, what if this is my fault" i panicked clutching onto my chest and digging my nails in.
"Hey listen to me. You did nothing wrong. Im sure Addison will be ok shes strong you know" Cristina reassured me.
"Yeah she is but what if.." i was cut off.
Cristina placed her hand onto the side of my head keeping it steady.
"Look at me. Don't think like that ok we don't know anything yet."
I breathed heavily.

I couldn't bare the thought of losing her. I had spent so long trying to work out what was going to happen and what i needed to do that I hadn't realised what was right in-front of me.

"And mer. Im sorry about what i said to you earlier that was unacceptable and unfair of me. I was just shocked" she exclaimed sadly.

"Its ok. Im sorry too for not telling you" i said and we smiled at each other before helping each other off the floor.
"Im gonna go and check on her" i said wiping the tears from my face.
"Il come too. For support?" She inquired giving me a hopeful glance.
"Ok" my voice was shaky and dry. What was i going to see when i went back down there.

It felt like in the movies when the character gets up in the darkness of the night because they hear a noise and they know somethings wrong but they still go down into the basement. Into the unknown despite how petrified they are.

My slender finger pushed the button of the elevator. My hands were still shaking. Thats when i heard yelling.

"No we are not taking her into surgery yet. We need to stabilise her heart first!" A voice called.

"Richard its Addison. Shes not just some other patient" Another voice screamed back. It was Derek.

"That's exactly what she is. We need to treat her equally. Giving her special attention could make it worse Derek"