Stolen Tears of Love

Chapter 14. Wondering about you

Kristy

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        My curiosity won over me and I walked outside. As I looked around my eyes layed upon them and I froze. Lilian's lips were on Sir Montears... I looked away quickly and walked away from them very quickly. As I went away from them, I realized I was running. I stopped running after a while and sat down right next to a lake. A clear lake with  gentle waves. As I sat down I felt so sad. This sadness overcame me and I coldn't help but cradle myself and take deep breaths. The image of Sir Montear and Lilian was disturbing. After a while I put my head up and looked up at the sky. It was a dark mess with the stars glowing with blue lights. It was dark like my story and I looked away. Trying to soothe myself I reached toward the lake. As my fingertips touched the surface of the lake my heart calmed down a bit. Although my hair was probably blowing around me in a mess, I didn't care.

         Looking at myself in the lake, I tried to smile but it came out as sadness covering my whole face. There was a beauitful woman staring right at me. As I blinked she blinked with me. Her blonde hair was gently blowing. Her eyes were full of sadness that broke me over and over. I wanted to look away and pretend I never had any feelings for Sir Montear. I was just a broken woman who thought maybe I had interest in someone. Who was he to mess around with me. I sighed and snuggled myself together. I leaned on my arm and rested, still looking at myself.  Sir Montear was a man of secrets and darkness looming over his shoulders. What made me have interest in him was the question. I tried to erase the thoughts of him, but it wasn't easy. Maybe..just a little...I had interest in him....

        "How are you this beautiful, why are you so mysterious....." gentle whispery words flew through me as the wind carried it on. I shot my head up and looked around. Something about the voice made me warm   I must have been in my thoughts too deep that the next thing I know Miranda's voice came out. She was calling me, and I quickly got up. I didn't want her to think that I had jumped off a window and ran away like last time. I quickly walked toward the house. 

        " Kristy, we are soon going to have a meeting so you can have your free time. You must me very tired for all of this." Miranda's words comforted me and I nodded and replied " I'm just going to take a walk outside and rest there." Although Miranda's eyes seemed worried she nodded and walked away. I wondered what kind of meeting it was... It must be an important one... Walking back out and feeling the warm wind greet me, felt so good.  Nature was comforting yet a beautiful disaster. My heart was heavy but I decided to block the thoughts of Sir Montear. As I walked I felt lonely so I decided to hum a song my mother always sang to me. It was a quiet night but I guess a little meldoy wouldn't hurt. So with the song in my head and my lips moving I walked toward the lake. As I sat back down near the lake I kept humming the song. It helped me think about mother and that was what I needed most right now. My fingers just kept touching the slight waves in the lake. The coolness colliding with my fingers made me shiver, but not in coldness but in delightness. I didn't even know I was smiling until I hear someone approaching. 

        "Hm, looks like you're enjoying yourself Ms. Kristian Greenland." 
I looked up to the deep voice and my breath gave a tiny gasp away. "He..Hello Sir Montear........... what makes you think I'm enjoying myself." At first I stuttered but I realized why did I have to look like a weakling, so I eyed him firmly and replied back. 
"Well first you're smiling, and also you were humming so it made me think you were having a time you were enjoying." I shrugged and replied " Well I guess you can think that way although you never now what a person's real mind is. " Sir Montear's face darkened and I gave myself a secret satisfying smile. Without even asking, he sat right next to me near the lake. I inched away, for I didn't want him too near me. I didn't like people touching me especially men. "Well, yes you don't know a person's mind unless you become that person. That's how complicated a person's mind is and that's how hard you have to control it carefully. " I didn't understand his words and how he had said control their minds. I didn't say anything and just looked across the lake. As he kept talking I closed my eyes and just hummed the song in my head completely ignoring him. I didn't want to talk about anything, all I wanted to do was just hum and he had inturupted my perfect time. 

        "Ms. Kristian Greenland, were you even listening to me?" I opened my eyes and shook my head. It was kind of embarrassing now that he was looking at me. He grumbled and looked away. I shrugged and touched the lake again. It was becoming a habit. "You know..... nature has a lot of stories and they tell them to us each night, but only the person who can understand them and see them are the ones who can hear the story each night.  And there was this one story where it talked about the tear in a heart that was surrounded by love. This heart was given to a young woman..... You don't have to try to control a heart or mind because they're something that is valuable and important to humans. The more you try to control and have power the more it will scratch away the warmth and bring the cold. That's just how nature works and that's how they tell the stories that only few can see..." These words that came out of my mouth surprised me and I could tell Sir Montear's face was surprised. After a few minutes of empty silence with me cursing myself out in my head his voice came......"so....can you see them..?" I didn't want anyone to know anything about me but I just nodded.