ELEVEN . tsukishima kei [✓]

#154 | apr 23rd

dear kei,

how are you? are you eating okay? i should've asked these questions before. im missing you more than ever.

why? i don't know.

is it because i know i'll never see you again? possibly. you won't answer me, so im assuming you don't want to meet. hinata-kun says you don't even want to talk about me. the mention of me makes you uncomfortable....

im sorry about that. i never meant to become a burden in your life. that's why i thought we'd be better off on our own. i never thought you'd actually break it off for us. i thought we'd be happy forever.

but you left me when i needed you most. it's a selfish thing to say but i really needed you. i wanted your comfort. i needed it.

your hands were always so rough. the way they would slid against my skin gave me goosebumps. you would grab my hand in your sleep, holding it in your own as if i would disappear. it would make my heart race endlessly. it makes me flustered just thinking about it.

but you won't grab my hand. you won't kiss me. you won't hug me. you won't talk about me.

i love you so so much but none of that matters to you. it really is my fault. i suck at this.

everything i say is either me blaming myself or blaming you. you weren't at fault. it was me. i understand that now. you're never in the wrong. you're too perfect :,)

please, just one letter would satisfy everything. just one single letter back. you blocked me on everything so i can only resort to this.

would you please say something?

i love you so much, kei <3

sincerely,
l/n f/n :)