ELEVEN . tsukishima kei [✓]

#259 | aug 19th

dear kei,

im scared, kei, please.

help me. im so scared.

you know how i used to talk about how death wasn't scary? i made fun of all those people who were afraid of death.

look at me now.

im in bed, crying over the thought of death.

im scared. i don't want to go. i don't want to leave. please. help me.

hold me and tell me ill be okay. tell me i won't die. tell me that it's all just a bad dream.

tell me you're actually here with me and all this bad stuff is just a figment of my imagination.

fuck. why weren't you there that day? what was so important that you couldn't spare me one day?? i had to sit in that doctor's office alone and hear that there was less than a year for me.

i fucking needed you.

i needed you

im so scared. i don't wanna do this alone. why aren't you here? im begging you to see me at least once

i love you so much

sincerely,
l/n f/n