karl jacobs angst B)

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Tw: suicidal thoughts, cutting, hate comments

Karl had never been the type to take things to heart. Not until now.
QKarl choked on his sobs as he read the hateful comments about him on mr beasts video.

'Karl is ruining the beast crew. We should kick him off

'Hey Karl if you see this. Kys'

'The guy with the fluffy brown hair is so annoying oml'

'Istg Karl is only doing this to replace Chandler'

"Maybe they're right" Karl sobbed to himself as he shut off his phone and buried himself into his bed sheets.

'They're right you know. You're a worthless copycat. No one likes you Karl'

"Shut up shut up SHUT UP!" He screamed into his pillow more tears blurring his vision.

'Everyone hates you karl'

That was the last straw.

Karl threw his pillows and blankets everywhere he cried angrily and recked his desk throwing monster cans and papers everywhere. He scratched at his arms angrily trying to get some type of relief.

He stomped to his bathroom and pulled out his spare razor blades for shaving.

is he really gonna do this?

'Yes'

He sliced the blade over his arm screaming in pain and anger. Karl bit his lip trying to muffle his screams as he sliced more cuts into his arm.
Once he was done and more calmed down Karl finally realized what he had done.

"Fuck fuck FUCK. What do I do?! What if stream notices, what if sapnap or quackity or or-" Karl cut himself off as he caught eye of his make up kit.

Karl ran too it and desperately looked through it until he found what he was looking for.

Concealer and foundation.

He quickly put some on but stopped immediately after the pain.

"I probably should bandage these" Karl hissed in pain as he put the makeup away and pulling out the bandages.

His hands shook as he wrapped his arms up, wincing in pain every now and then.

It was sloppy but it'll do for now.
Karl looked at himself in the mirror.
His cheeks were tear stained and blotchy And his eyes were red with irritation. His hair and clothes were disheveled and forearms covered with messy and bloody bandages.

"I look disgusting" Karl scowled to himself, gripping the granite table.

He continued to stare at himself before going back to his room; bot bothering to clean up the mess he made.

(Time skip to the morning cuz I'm lazy asf)

Incoming call from Mr beast!

Karl groaned lifting his head off his pillow and grabbing his phone.

"Hello?" He groaned out tiredly.

"Hey karl! Sorry if I woke you up haha! " Jimmy giggled.

"Its fine " he responded with a small smile that Jimmy couldn't see.

"Alright. Anyway would you like to be in today's video?" He asked smile audible in his words.

'Say no. His fans don't want to see your ugly face'

"Uhm..whats the video of?" Karl asked wearily.

"We were gonna buy 3 stores "

"Oh ok..yeah I guess gimme a sec I'll be there in like an hour."

"Alright see you soon" Jimmy said before hanging up.

Karl sighed before rolling out of bed, wincing during the process
He went to his dress and picked out a crew necklace sweater along with some skinny jeans.

(The fit)

Karl made his way back to the all too familiar bathroom. Once he got in there he pulled his sleeves up and looked at his forearms.
He slowly took the bandages off wincing every now and then.
Eventually they were off and laying on the table. Iterated red lines scattered all over Karl's arms; some of them reopening.
He grabbed some rubbing achihol and a cotton ball and dabbed some achihol onto the cuts to clean them, hissing in pain. Once he finished he properly bandaged them and walked out.
Skipping breakfast he grabbed his phone and keys and got in his car.

'Have fun embarrassing yourself once again'

"Oh my God fuck off" karl groaned rubbing his temples.

Finally he started the car and drove to Mr beasts studio.

On the way there he couldn't help but feel worried.
What if he messed up. What if he laughed the wrong way. What if-

BEEEEEPPPP

Karl swirved as a car passed him, the driver flipping him off. 
He quickly focused back onto the road and not his thoughts.

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"Karl you made it!" Chandler exclaimed happily.

Karl smiled as he ran up to hug him.

"Hry Karl! I'm glad you could make it! Let's get ready to go the first store!" Jimmy greeted patting him on the back.

"Alright!" Karl replied happily.

On the way to the first store Karl couldn't help but think about those comments. What would they think about him in this video? What if they hate him even more? What if-

"Hey karl you good bud? You spaced put for a second" Chris asked, looking at him worriedly.

"Oh...yeah I'm ok; just thinking about the stores we're going to" He reassured Chris.

In his head he had no idea where they were going to; but oh well.

"Oh alright- anyway we're here!" Chris demeanor changed into a happy one as he unbuckled and jumped out of his seat. Karl doing the same.

Into another hell hole we go.

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Hey shawtys I spent wayyyy too long on this so I make a part 2 soon! But I hope you enjoyed this! Also THANK YOU FOR 3K READS!?!?!?!, WTF YOU GUYS ARE SO NICE !!
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