Bakudeku Deku's Big secret

Am I? No I'm.....

(⚠️talks about abortion and suicidal thoughts if you are uncomfortable please skip this chapter⚠️)

Somethings wrong here..
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I know what's wrong I just don't want to say it out loud it would be like shouting to everyone that I am quirkless..but they'll find out anyways.
I sat on the toilet bouncing my leg for what seemed like an eternity. I couldn't be I'm a male..so why..I should go to the doctor it's probably something else wrong with me and I'm not what I think I am.. let's hope..
but I also can't think like something is wrong Ugh I just I- don't know what to do...I want my mom back..good thing she comes back tonight cause I would loose my mind. I can't go..I don't want to get in trouble but what if somethings wrong with me.
I couldn't help up think this over and over again repeatedly saying the same thing in and out of my head. It was like it was on loop much like an ad that you get very video you watch, it gets annoying then you get used to it until it's not even a bother anymore
I NEED to go to the hospital I NEED to make sure nothing is wrong with me before mom gets home.
I look at my phone it reads 2:30 pm. I can make it before mom gets home.
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I Finished walking to the hospital stood in front of the automatic doors they looked intimidating I gulped as I made a big step towards them. I took a deep breath and enter the building. Once I entered everyone within had their eyes glued to me. I probably look soooo off. Of course I do I'm a male and I'm not even in high school!
A nurse brought me out of my thoughts.
"How may I help you? Do you need to find someone?" She asked I look at her with a bit of blush that was lingering on my cheeks from her question cause I know I'm going to have to answer her.
"Uh...well I'm here for an appointment.." I say.
"Okay who are you looking for?"
"Uh..no..Um...I'm the patient..." I whisper to her. She cocked her head to the side.
"Um sir..this is a Maternity hospital..I'm afraid We can't help you here." She said typing on her computer.
"Um...yeah..I know but I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive.." I told her trying not to cry in the process.
"Um okay sir it probably means you have cancer or something, we've had males come in and it turns out it was cancer..but we can check for you...please have a seat" she stoped talking about cancer when I looked like I was about to cry and scream at her. I felt bad for looking like that but I don't know what's wrong with me..I'm barley 14 I can't be pregnant and I can't have cancer I'm too young and I eat healthy.
After while of waiting. I grew a little impatient at how long I was waiting until.
"Izuku Midoryia" I quickly got up. I felt all eyes on me as I walked to the nurse who called my name.
"Follow me" she said.
We walked until we came across a room that had the words doctor Gino Hikamen.
"Your doctor will be with you shortly" she said before shutting the door.
I sighed. More waiting. I looked at the clock it was now 4:28 pm mom gets home at 6:40 ish. I hope and pray to god that nothings wrong and I can get home on time. I sat and waited. The door finally opened to reveal. A man in his early 50s and had glasses.
"Hello there I'm Doctor Hikamen..what seems to be the problem" he says as he seats down in the rolling chair at the desk.
"Well I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive.." I told him. He put what I told him in his notebook.
"How old are you?"
"I'm 13 I'll be 14 In July" I told him. He wrote everything I told him down. The last question caught me off Guard.
"Have you been sexually active with another male?" He asks like it no big deal like is common to ask that.
I blushed but nodded.
He brought in a ultrasound machine.
"Just to be on the safe side" he said as he warned me the gel was going to be cold. I jumped at the feeling of the cold gel touching my stomach. He gently pressed the wand on my stomach as he spread the gel as he moved the wand. He stoped and froze.
"I'll be right back" he says as he puts the waned back and takes off the gel and hands me the towel he used.
"Please wipe it all off I'll be back" he told me before he left. Now I'm more nervous. He came back in 10 minutes.
"So mr Midoryia.." he said.
"Am I dying??" I asked.
"No"
"You-you have female parts on the inside but male parts on the outside..so when you had sex with the other male you got pregnant" he told me. I sat there frozen in shock.
I....kacchan...sex...baby...me...pregnant ....13.............I......oh god..
"Do you want to um abort the fetus?" He asked. I look up at him.
"No-yes..uh can you let me think..?"
"Yes sir you are only a couple of days which it's very hard to detect this early,this is also the first male pregnancy when the male has both female and male parts...it's extraordinary.." he said.
"You should be-"
"I should be what?!? Proud!! I should be what happy?!? I'm pregnant at 13! I'm a male! A quirkless male! I- it's only me and my mom I have no clue where my dad is..and the father of this baby bullies me cause I don't have a quirk.., so I should be what?" I snapped.
"Uh...I'm sorry........" with that he left the room. I felt me knees cave in. I hugged them crying on the floor.
I can't believe...I'm pregnant with kacchans baby...
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The more I said it the more I felt like a nightmare.
I'm a male...I'm pregnant...
What would mom say..how will I even tell her? Would she abandon me??
Should I just get an abortion? No I would be a murder then...I'm trying to be a hero...but...why did it have to be me?? Why couldn't kacchans pretty face be pregnant instead of me..why couldn't he be the one going through EVERYTHING I have! Why can't he have it have just once!
Why
Why
Why
Why...
God...
Why
Me!!!
Please give me mercy..........
Please......
I'm sorry for whatever I did I'm sorry I failed to stop kacchan from having sex with me I know I took advantage of him in his drunken state but..it still takes two to make a baby.......
It's not my fault.....
It's my fault...
I stoped walking and got up the the apartment. Mom was standing at the door with a cop beside her. I caught a glimpse of what they were talking about.
" don't worry ma'am we will find you son" he says as he puts a hand on my mom's shoulder to Reassure her.
"Mom..." I said walking around the corner.
"Izuku my baby! Where were you!" She said hugging me.
"I went for a walk and my phone died...so I lost track of time." I said. She looked at me.
"Have you been crying?" She asked.
"A little...I didn't know where I was for a bit but I managed to found my way back" I said.
"Thank goodness..Mitsuki and Katsuki were out looking for you by there house I'll go give them a call." Mom said as she disappeared into the house.
Why did you have to look for me stupid kacchan......
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This is all my fault....maybe I should have died..maybe this would all be better..
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Maybe...it would be better for everyone.
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