Bakudeku Deku's Big secret

Wait what?

After Kacchan  and I started caring for the boys together. Yes caring because I'm pretty sure we're not dating. We're too focused on the boys and their well being over our relationship. Which I'm glad he gets to spend time with the boys, but it gets lonely when the person you love is not even looking in your direction. Oh did I forget to mention, Kacchan and I got into a fight over the fact that I didn't tell him which I under stand but he said he was okay with it. And I know that doesn't make up for it but, I was scared! Could you blame me? He wasn't the best person to me before and others around him too. The only reason I'm letting him be near the boys is because he's their father and I want to believe that he changed.
"Dek- uh Izuku, where's the extra bowls the brat- uh Kenji broke it and now Izumi is crying I may need some help here" kacchan said.
I got up and walked over to the kitchen where kacchan seems to be struggling between both boys.
"Here, I always put the extra bowls in this cabinet and he was just startled you just need to tell him it's okay kacchan"
"I uh- I tired!"
"Kacchan it's okay it just takes time" I said as I moved around the bigger male to the closet to grab the mop. I then put more food into the new bowl and wiped Izumis tears as I fed him then his brother. I felt kacchan staring at the back of me. It's kinda scary.
I turn towards him.
"Something the matter kacchan?" I asked.
"Yeah.." I look at him confused.
"I would have Been a better parent if you told me in the first place! " he raised his voice at the end. I back away startled at the sudden anger in his voice.
"Kacchan..please don't do this again we have school tomorrow can we just not."
"Not what? Huh I can't believe you anymore! I'm trying here and your not even helping your always spacing!"
"Kacchan! I've been doing everything! Because I have to! I'm a parent before anything else which is why I have been helping but you always say I got it! Stop making up for lost time !-" I stoped. Lost time , the lost time was because of me. I looked down.
"Sorry-"
"No! Your not you know what I'm done!"
"Done?! What do you mean done?"
"I'm done with you! I can't do it"
Kacchan said as he grabbed his stuff and head toward the door.
"This is why I didn't tell you in the first place!"
I shouted. Kacchan turned around.
"Huh?" He looked at me with a glare.
"You said you were ready when I told you, and that YOU even knew back then you wouldn't have stuck around! So don't even I was doing what was best for both me and the baby! And I was right.. kacchan your not ready..."
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With that the days went by me and kacchan have barley spoke when he's at my house we take care of the boys and that's that, we go our separate ways after. I've noticed that the class seems concerned that we don't even fight because we've done that so many times I can't , I don't have the energy to. I love him but I said all that too him because I love him. I need to talk to him...

Katsuki's POV.
I miss talking to him.. I know we fought but it hurts you know, because he's right. If he told me back then I wouldn't have stuck around and I know I'm not a parent and I can't make up for lost time, I'm a new parent but I have older kids I don't get to make mistakes because it will be apparent on them because they can talk now. They could talk before I met them they could walk before I met them. I missed everything because of the asshole I used to be. That me made this mess, I want it to be me with Izuku and the twins beside us. I love him and I love the kids . I was only mad because he was right and I wanted to be the person he deserves but I can never be.
I need to talk to him.
"Deku!" I screamed. It was lunch break, I marched up to him. I didn't care who was around. I needed to apologize, he was doing everything he deserved to have a break and I needed more time to figure out parenting.
"Dek-Izuku...I shouldn't have shouted at you..you deserve a break-"
"Kacchan!"
"I'm not done...you've raised two kids by your self..and I want to step up and be a good father for them..and to be a good lover to you..I haven't always been nice to you because of my feelings toward you and I'm sorry...I love you and our sons...so please forgive me..!!!" I bowed. I know everyone is looking at me like I'm crazy..and yes I am I'm crazy in love with Izuku Midoryia...
"WAIT WHAT!" I heard my extra of a class shout.
Shit...hehe Izuku's gonna be mad..
I looked down at him...
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