Not Fair | eren x reader

-3- Why dad

!TW ABUSE!

I woke up and started to get ready for school. After I was done I searched for my skateboard and headed off to school .

The first lessons were so boring and I just couldn't resist to fall asleep as soon as I laid my head on the desk. The bell startled me and I woke up. To my surprise we already have lunch now so I went ,as always, to the bleachers, as I arrived i saw floch, he saw me too and walked to my direction.

"Hey Y/n how are you" Floch said as he greeted me with a smile on his face "Hey flo" I said and regretted it the same second, I just have that thing for nicknames. Floch just gave me smile as a response. "Why are you smiling?" I asked hoping it's not because of the nickname. "Its just the nickname" he said still smiling. Oh no.

I watched him as he continued to smile and it was weirdly cute. "Oh sorry, idk I just said it"
I said a little embarrassed. "No no it's ok, I like it" he said with a smirk plastered on his face.
"good bc i like it too" I said smiling too. He then stopped it and seemed like he just remembered something.

"I wanted to ask you if you wanted to go to that one party with me and my friends this Friday?" He asked me while his hazel eyes locked with mine. "Umm idk i don't go to party's"
I said unsure. "Come on it will be fun, I will even be your drive" he almost begged
It will be fine, nothing bad will happen. Ill just lie to my dad. I like Floch he wouldn't do something bad, I think I already trust him. I thought to myself
After I thought about it a little more, I spoke up again. "Ok but you'll drive me, don't forget it"
"Ok, I dont forget it princess" He chuckled. "I like my nickname too flo"
I said while I blushed
"You're cute" he said in awe and looked away from me. "Thanks" I thanked him awkwardly with light red cheeks.

"My boys are waiting for me so see you Friday princes, yeah?" he asked me as he began to walk over to his friends. "See you Friday Floch" i said as I waved him a goodbye.
He returned me a wave and smiled at me then left.
I smiled like an idiot while I thought about him
What's going on with me i never talk to anyone and especially not like I speak with him, what am I doing, I hope I'm doing the right thing right now.

***

After school I went home and opened the door and got greeted by my dad.
"Well, well if that's not my slutty daughter Y/n long time no see" my dad signaled me with his eyes to come in.
"Do you know what you did Y/n? youre such an disappointment for our family. Eeverything that happened to us was because of you, you're a mistake. I wish I could just move in time and never had you" he said as he breathed in heavily. His anger just grew as he watched me standing still. At this point I was so confused, what did I do? I did nothing wrong.
"Are you gonna say something or?" My dad asked me and grew nearer to me. I stepped back slowly trying to calm him down but Before I could even respond, his hand connected with my cheek and my body hit the floor.
Than it hit me. „Dad you're drunk" I said with tear filled eyes. He looked at me with completely empty eyes as if he has no emotions.
He grabbed a beer bottle from the floor and without any sympathy smashed it on my head.
And it all went black.

***

I woke up with a really bad headache, I looked around me and noticed that I'm still laying on the floor but no sign from my dad.
I got up and rushed into my room then locked the door and Broke down into tears.
I held my mouth shut so he wouldn't hear me.

Why can't I have a normal life, why is everyone that cruel to me. I have no one and can't even tell anyone about this, I feel so lonely.
i am literally trying as hard as I can but it seems like nothing will change my dad.
After awhile I got myself together, stood up, layed down on my bed and just stared at the ceiling and thought about my life and how my life was once perfect and I had a perfect family. My mom left me at an young age, I've never asked dad why or where she is because I figured it out by myself.
At that time my dad turned into a monster and was drunk everyday, he wouldn't let it go. And therefore my mom left us. Well that's at least my interpretation of it.

I also lost so many important people in my life and the only people who are still there, have to be people like my dad, just toxic. The thought of school was so stressing that I've decided to skip a few days. School is the last place I want to be Right now. I got very tired and fell asleep.

I woke up from my nap and got bored so I checked my phone and saw I got a massage from Floch but wasn't really in the mood to answer it so i ignored it. That's something I have too let go off because whenever I feel stressed out I just cut off everyone and everything around me.
After awhile of over thinking I finally driftet off back to sleep.

***

it's been 2 days since the incident and I didnt do much, i just layed in bed and watched netflix till I knew literally all of the series's. While my dad wasn't home. I haven't seen him since then.

I haven't even checked my phone or answered the texts that I got so I decided it would be a good idea to do it now. I opened flochs chat first.
I called you a couple of times but you didn't answer and I haven't seen you in school in the past two days, so I'm worried. If you see this, Let me know if you  are okay. As soon as I read the chat I texted him back immediately. Hey flo, I'm alright. I've been just a little sick Yk.
Im so glad you're Fine Y/n I was so worried. Anyways are you still Down
for tomorrow? He asked me about the party. Yeah 100% And don't forget that you're driving.
Yeah yeah I won't forget it. He responded. Sureeeee I teased him.
Just Be ready at 8 and you'll see it. He responded ok see you tomorrow flo:)
See you tomorrow princess

I smiled at my phone like an idiot and felt like there was still hope. At least one thing is turning ok in my life right now.