more than anything

break up

Derek lifted her up, his hands supporting her thighs as he carried her up the stairs.

When he got to her bedroom he placed her down on the bed. It was dark with the acceptation of the moonlight shining through the windows. "Is this what you want?" he asked her, not wanting her to feel pressured.

She nodded in response, pulling him down on the bed with her. He pulled away from her lips, before slowly lifting up her top to reveal the lavender lace bra underneath.

She mirrored his actions, lifting up his shirt and unbuckling his belt. They moaned into each other's moth as they kissed, taking turns in undressing.

Derek was in nothing but boxers, Meredith only wearing a bra and panties.

He reached around her back to unclasp her bra, and was rewarded with her full breasts, spilling out. He looked at her figure, running his hands up and down the sides of her body.

Without hesitation he took one of her breasts in his mouth, she moaned at the sensation.

He switched their positions, flipping her over so that he was on top. She reached down to remove his boxers as they kissed. He did the same back, slowly pulling down her panties before moving down to kiss her neck, leaving hicky's along the way.

He moved his kisses down her breasts and stomach until he was facing her centre. Sat right between her thighs.

She gave a nod of approval before he moved himself forward. His tongue, sucking her clit. She let out loud moans, one of her hands in his hair, guiding him where she needed.

"Fuck yes, right there" she moaned. He thrusted his tongue in and out. "Derek...yes, yes...i'm...coming" she practically screamed, riding her orgasm.

He looked up at her smugly, feeling content, knowing how he just made her feel.

She smirked at him before she pushed him down, wanting to return the favour. He knew what she was about to do but he was desperate be inside of her.

He pulled her back up, her body straddling his. She leaned in to kiss him whilst pumping him a few times, then putting his length at her opening. Without warning she moved downwards, his length entering her.

They sat like that for a minute, she needed to let herself adjust to his size. He was by far the biggest she'd ever seen.

"You okay?" he asked, wanting to make sure she was. "Amazing she whispered in reply before gravitating herself. Once they got into a rhythm, she started bouncing, small moans escaping her mouth and the occasional grunt coming from his.

He was ecstatic, the woman he was in love with was currently, naked, in bed, riding him. All his thoughts disappeared when he felt himself edging closer and closer.

He could tell by her walls clamping down on him that she was just as close. He helped move her hips up and down for the last time before he felt himself come undone.

They both came and she collapsed onto his chest. He pulled a blanket over her, playing with strands of her hair, which were now damp with sweat.

"Meredith, shit, we didn't use..." he remembered. "No it's okay, i'm on the pill, and i...we're both clean" she tried to calm her breathing. He let out a sigh of relief, his arms still wrapped around her.

"Let's sleep, we'll talk tomorrow" she suggested. Instead of replying he made sure she was comfortable as they drifted off together.

She woke before him, memories form the previous night came flashing back. She didn't regret it at all, she just felt guilty. She had a boyfriend, who had reminded her time and time again how he was worried they were more than friends, he was right.

She looked over at Derek who was still fast asleep. She then reached over for her phone and texted him.
Meredith- can we talk later?
Jack- sure, is everything okay
Meredith- we'll talk later, meet me at joes at 6.

"Good morning" Derek sat up, looking over at her. "Are you alright?" he asked, referring to the worried look on her face. "I'm a terrible person" she mumbled, "oh" he sounded disappointed. "Do you not want this?" he asked, not sure if he wanted to know the answer. "No it's not that, last night was amazing...it wasn't a mistake, i just, shouldn't have let it happen like this" she reassured.

She looked over at him, he looked upset. She didn't want him to think she didn't want this, so she leaned over and kissed him.

Before it could heat up she pulled away, "Der i really do want this, i just need to end things with Jack first" she told him, he nodded understandingly.

A little while later, Derek went to work and left Meredith alone at home, she was desperately trying to think of what to tell Jack. She decided she would be honest, he at least deserved that.

It was finally time to see him, she sat in the bar, her leg shaking with nervousness, waiting for him. "Meredith" Jack came over to her, sitting opposite. "Jack, hi, thank you for meeting me" she tried to stay emotionless, just wanting to rip of the bandaid.

"What's going on?" he questioned, "Jack, i really like you, and you deserve so much you really do. But i can't be the one to give it to you" she got it over with. "Are you breaking up with me?" he accused, "i'm sorry" she sighed.

They sat in uncomfortable silence for a couple minutes. "Can i ask why?" he looked her in the eye, "you were right about me and Derek, i'm so, so sorry" she apologised. "I didn't want to be right" he looked away from her, standing up to go. She nodded, her eyes filled with tears as he walked out.

She cried the whole way home, it wasn't that she broke up with him, it was the way she always ended up hurting people.

"Meredith" he looked at her sympathetically as she walked through the front door, tears streaming down her cheeks. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked her, she shook her head no. Instead of saying anything he pulled her into a hug.

"I love you" he admitted, quietly, she couldn't stop crying long enough to reply, instead she squeezed his hand. That was enough for now.

Thanks for being patient :))