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vinnie and i were over the moon. i was just about 3 months pregnant and doctors said that was a 75% chance that i would would be complication free during childbirth. we finally going to have a baby and start our family!
we had also just decided how we were going to decorate the nursery. we wanted to make it as neutral as possible so we decided to go with a grey/elephant theme. we decided to paint on a gloomy sunday afternoon but i felt bright inside from excitement.
"vinnie!" i called out from the unpainted nursery. "can you bring up the long paint rollers? i left them in the garage."
"yea sure!" he replied.
when vinnie got upstairs we immediately got to painting and played music and dances around the room. when we got to being almost half way done with the room a sharp shooting pain shot through my abdomen. i cried out in pain and bent over clutching my stomach.
"baby?" vinnie began turning to look at me. when you saw me keeled over he rushed to me. "
y/n? what's wrong?" vinnie exclaimed rushing over to me frantically.
"i- it's the baby" i breathed out, as a needle-like pain began to stab at lower back. all of a sudden i felt an urge to throw up and shot up and ran to the nearest bathroom vinnie following me. i threw up for what felt like forever until i was all emptied out. the pain was being slightly subdued as vinnie rubbed my back. for a split second i felt at peace but then i felt the all too familiar feeling of blood leaking out of me. i gasped in horror as i realized i was having a miscarriage.
"vinnie we need to get to the hospital now!" i sobbed out.
"what? why?" vinnie questioned.
"vinnie come on! we just need to go please!" i begged him. "there's something wrong with the baby we need to go." he stopped hesitating and ushered me out to the car, driving as fast as he could to the hospital. i was to afraid to tell him that we lost the baby because i didn't want it disappoint him again. all i wanted was to give him a child and i couldn't even do that. i broke down, my chest heaving with sobs as vinnie continued to race to the hospital. he questioned me, begging me to tell him what was wrong but i just couldn't do it.
when we arrived vinnie and i rushed inside. i went to the first nurse i saw and said my voice tight from pain, "i'm miscarrying. please help me." and then an overwhelming wave of fatigue rushed over me and i passed out.
(time skip)
i woke up to bright lights and the the strong smell of hospitals engulfing me. i looked around taking in my surrounding when i saw a worn out vinnie sitting in the corner.
"vinnie."
"y/n! you're awake!" he rushed over to me peppering kisses all over my face as a wave of guilt washed over me.
"is the baby gone?" i said lowly.
"yea. they're gone. but you're ok."
"i'm so sorry vinnie. i'm so sorry that i lost the baby." i said beginning to cry. a sad look crossed over vinnies face as he contemplated his next words but i didn't let him get to them.
"i'm sorry for disappointing you. all i want to do is give you a baby but i can't even do that and i totally understand if you want to leave me now because this isn't the first time we tried to have a baby and i failed yo-" i rambled
"y/n. shh. calm down it's not your fault. and i wouldn't leave you for anyone. and you didn't fail me. you could never ever make me leave you. you'll always be mine."
"i love you so much vin. i don't know what i'd do without you"
"i love you so much more y/n. you're the best thing that ever happened to me."
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