Meet me in the stars

Truth

Taes POV:
"Guys I'm just going to the bathroom I will be right back" I say to the others slowly getting up feeling weaker than usual, "okay, are we okay to start without you?" Jimin asks me I nod in response afraid of my voice cracking due to the pain I'm feeling. I walk out of the room and walk Down the corridor sometimes using the railing for support I walk past the bathroom and walk a little further down the corridor when I stop at the door with Dr. Wang suho written on it, I lightly knock the door two times before I hear a soft "come in" I enter the office and close the door behind me

it's small neat office a desk two chairs a small couch a painting of the beach on one of the walls, a small hanging plant in one corner by the widow that sits behind his desk, white walls like the rest of the hospital, suho is sat at his desk signing some papers before he looks up at me, " ah Taehyung Thankyou for coming, please take a seat" he gestures me to sit on the seat on my side of the desk, I slowly walk towards the seat and pull it a bit weakly this doesn't go Unnoticed by him." Are you okay Taehyung? I was slightly concerned by your latest blood work and also something else that I wanted to discuss with you but I feel like there's something else we need to talk about today, am I right?" He asks me concerned, I sit down and sigh deeply before shaking my head " n-no, no I'm not okay" he smiles at me sympathetically

As well as your blood work ....I got your results from your latest cat scan.... I'm sorry Taehyung but the cancer has spread again..." you would think that I would be affected by this news but I'm not I've heard it before it always spreads, of course it's spread it always does." my legs... they go numb sometimes, whenever I walk I feel like I'm walking on knives, they can be cold to the touch sometimes..." "that's where the cancer has spread its started attacking the bone marrow in your legs, that's not the only place it's spread Taehyung, have you been getting stomach cramps lately, loss of appetite, perhaps even vomiting blood?" " All of the above" I chuckle bitterly understanding where he is going with this, before he can start speaking again I interrupt him "I've been coughing blood has it finally reached my lungs too?" I look up at him to see him with glossy eyes and a sad expression he looks down and nods

" it's okay doc I know you can't do anything this time, it's okay it's a miracle I made it this far right?" We both let out a sad chuckle " h-how ......how long .." " I don't know Taehyung not this time it could happen at anytime now I would really like it if you would stay incase you need medical attention fast, if you go back home alone who is going to call an ambulance for you when you collapse and don't get up?" He looks up at me as a tear escapes his eye, he's always tried to maintain a professional relationship but he's been my doctor since I was 8 years old seeing me twice a week if not more he's seen me grow up and now he's watching me die

" I know doc it's okay but I don't want to stay here. On days that I'm not feeling good I will just call chim or Jungkook besides I have a to die list to complete". I chuckle lightly causing him to smile and nod at me, " I can give you some painkillers to help with the cramps and muscle pain", I nod greatfully "thanks doc" he nods and hands me a slip of paper with my prescription on it, " you know what to do with this, I will see you next week Taehyung don't hesitate to call if you need me, he gives me a small smile I return it and head out of the office back to my friends.

When I walk back in the room I see everyone laughing and smiling at eachother causing me to smile, I really love these people I'm glad they have eachother atleast they won't be too sad when I'm gone... "Tae bear, where were you? You took ages" Jin asks me with a pout, " duh he was making out with Jungkook" Jimin says smirking and winking at me it was only now that I realise he wasn't in the room, "what do you mean? Where is he?" I asked confused, " he said he was going to see if you were okay" Namjoon says furrowing his eyebrows, oh god he didn't follow me did he? What if he heard? What if he kno- "hey guys oh Tae there you are I was looking for you must have gone to the wrong bathroom" Jungkook says giving me a half smile why are his eyes red has he been crying? "Yah foods hereeeeeeee, eat up hoes" Jimin says cheering about finally eating food.

We all eat I casually pick at the food occasionally taking a bite not wanting people to be suspicious after eating we chat for a while laughing and smiling with eachother before we know it, it was 10:30pm and time for everyone to leave we all say goodbye to Jin, Jungkook has been avoiding me since he came back from looking for me, he walks up to me and gives me a short hug without saying anything and getting into the car with Namjoon driving a way shortly after, leaving me feeling upset what did I do? Did I do something wrong? Maybe he doesn't like me after all probably a good thing I'm not gonna be around for long anyways...  I get into the car with Jimin, yoongi and Hobi and they take me home when they drop me off

I pretend to go inside and wait till they drive away, once they have gone I walk back out of my house towards the park where me and Jungkook had our first date a month ago now, I walk towards the meadow and lay in the soft grass amongst the flowers staring up at the galaxy infront of me, it's so beautiful how can there be so many colours yet none at the same time? I'm brought out of my thoughts by the buzzing of my phone I look at the screen and a small smile creeps up on my face

1 new message from: 💜kookie💜

I unlock my phone to read the message and my smile immediately drops and and tear leaves my eye I sigh deeply and take a breath before replying.

💜kookie💜: I heard you talking to Dr Wang Tae ....I know everything .

Me: I'm at the park where we met on our first date come if you want to  talk  x

I press send and sigh laying my head back down amongst the flowers, " I'm sorry for not telling you kookie"