Meet me in the stars

It hurts

Taes POV: 4 days later
I sigh and look over at the clock on the wall like I have done this every minute for last 2 hours, 3:04 am, I can't sleep. No matter what I do I can't sleep mean while muscle bunny here is sleeping peacefully softly snoring I hate him for being able to sleep but he looks so adorable when he is sleeping I can't help but stare at him, I sigh again before getting up and leaving the bed, I throw on some sweatpants and a jumper before leaving the room and heading downstairs, it's so quite, it reminds me of when I lived alone, I slip on my shoes and decide to go for a walk, I take my phone with me just incase Jungkook wakes up and freaks out at the fact I'm not there, I walk along the quite streets everyone sleeping peacefully in there homes, I sit on a bench close to the ice cream parlour where Jungkook and I had our first date, I reach into my pocket and grab my book and my green pen I smile at the nearly complete list, I click my pen and press a small tick next to the ones I have completed

6:make people smile ✅
10:make as many memories as possible ✅
21:live happily with jungkook✅

I smile as a tear slides down my cold cheek I wipe it away with my sleeve, I know about the surge I heard Jimin and Jungkook talking that night..

Flashback: the night Jungkook asked Jimin about Taes ideal date: Taes POV:
I wake up running my hand over the bed frowning feeling it empty, I sit up and rub my eyes "kookie?" I call out softly after getting no response I pull the covers and slip out of bed I knock on the bathroom door gently, " kookie?" After getting no response I turn the handle and peek inside frowning at the empty room, I quietly make my way through the house not wanting to wake anyone else, I stop when I hear voices in the kitchen, " Jungkook.... do you know what the surge is?" Is that Jimin he's talking too ? "It's where he body goes into shock his body will make him think he is better he will appear healthier than ever" " but isn't that a good thing" " no ...Jungkook ....it's not a good thing" what the hell are they talking about? "Jungkook once the surge is over death always quickly follows doctors still don't know why the surge happens but patients always die quickly after the surge is over" " you think he's surging don't you?" I gasp quietly as a tear rolls down my cheek no this can't be right I'm not surging I'm just going through a good patch right now I'm fine... I'm not surging, " i don't know Jungkook ... I mean doctors say that the surge can last from a few minutes to a few days.. but Tae has had a good few weeks... so I really don't know I hope he's not surging" " I don't want him to go Jimin how can I live without him" my heart breaks hearing Jungkook sob in pain about me leaving him more tears flow from my cheeks "shhh it's okay he here with us now let's make the most of it now he's still here with us ok?" "Thanks Jimin" I walk back up to my room swiftly and quietly not wanting them to know I was awake I slip back into the covers I close my eyes when I hear the door open and shut and feel shuffling in the bed, Jungkook wraps his arm around my waist and kisses the back of my head " I love you Taehyung please don't leave me yet" he whispers softly in my ear another tear leaves my eye slipping down landing softly on my pillow....
Present time:
I sigh deeply remembering Jimins words... what's worse is I think he's right the last two weeks I have felt better than ever although some mornings have been bad I really have never felt so good, I was hopeful thinking that maybe fate had a changed it's mind and I was going to live longer maybe grow older with Jungkook but maybe I'm not so lucky after all... I hurt a lot. There's a deadly pain in my stomach it hurts so much it keeps growing and getting worse, a familiar metallic taste grows in my mouth and I hunch over and let the blood flow out of my mouth, it hurts... help me it hurts so much, i reach for my phone I scroll through the contacts blood still dripping from my mouth I wipe away a drop that spills on my phone I press the contact and bring it up to my it it's rings a few times before they answer
Tae?...
Help m-me ...