Will I See You Again?

Speak Now

3 years ago

"Rahul, we need to talk"

Now what? Are we going to argue again on some mundane topic? Rahul couldn't help but wonder.

All these months that has been spent here, surrounded by some unknown people, hasn't really been a cakewalk for Rahul. The first time when he had wanted to exit the BB14 house, voluntarily, he was barely holding back all the hurt and loneliness. That time, his eyes had glistened with unshed tears. Those tears were his witnesses of the pain he's been subjected to, inside this house.
The host of the show has seemed disappointed with him at that time, but Rahul couldn't do anything except thank him and apologise.

Rahul has always thrived on love. Love from his family, his friends, his fans... his girlfriend.
The language of love always came easier to him, than hurtful words.

Later, when he had come back to the show, he came back with a strategy. Don't get emotionally involved, use your mental strength, instead. And he had done exactly that.

It doesn't matter who wins the trophy now, he was satisfied with his every decision.

However, at this moment, her to be standing here, with him, seemed rather ironic to Rahul. Till a month ago, she wouldn't even acknowledge his existence sometimes, but now here she, herself has walked up to where he's standing and wanted to talk to him.

What has changed?

It seemed like she's still isn't very comfortable when it comes to maintaining eye contact with him for more than a few seconds.

Only two more hours. Rahul told himself. After that, no more awkwardness. 

Unlike Rubina, he had no problem looking at her and patiently waited for her to speak.

"So this is it. We're the final survivors," she began hesitantly. "Can't wait to get back to the real world. God, I'll sleep for a month or go on a vacation." She smiled as she said it and then closed her eyes, most probably imagining herself, lounging someplace, quiet and beautiful.

Rahul smiled, hearing her obvious plans.

Then remembering where she is, Rubina immediately opened her eyes, "what would you do?" She asked him curiously and finally looked him in the eyes.

"Pyaar bina chain kaha re...

Rahul sang that single line and then looked out at the pool area and smiled. " I would go back to my lady love, my family" he answered.

"Aaw! That's sweet." Rubina said and then added, "I'm also missing my hubby, can't wait to meet him, he's missing me too"

"Of course he is," Rahul said and turned his gaze back to her face, again.

The conversation felt like it has come to an abrupt end. Both stood there awkwardly in the uncomfortable silence. Rahul thought of going back to the sofa and wait for the next alarm that will alert them to be ready to talk to the host.
But as he turned to take the first step, Rubina's words stopped him.

"Uh, wait! I wanted to say something else. I wanted to get it off my chest before we leave this house tonight." She said and then started wringing her hands.
A nervous gesture, Rahul thought but kept quiet about it. Instead he said, "Yeah? What is it?"

"I don't... I mean don't think..." and then she stopped. Looking rather frustrated at herself, she closed her eyes again briefly and took a few deep breaths. When she opened her eyes again, the picture perfect Rubina stood before him.

Nothing has changed.

"Listen, the things is, I don't want to hold on to any grudges. Let's be cordial and leave this house with a clear mind." Rubina said. It seemed as if she's giving an interview.

"Didn't we had this same conversation two weeks ago?" Rahul asked her as a frown appeared on his face.

He knew they weren't friends and maybe never will be. Once, he had hoped for it. In fact, tried to take the first step multiple times but each time his words had been taken in the wrong way.

It's true his nature is a little flirtatious. It comes with his job, it helps him in weddings to acquire more clients for future events. But he knows his limits and he has maintained it. Both outside and inside the house.

Yes, he finds her attractive, yes, he's capable of appreciating beauty but that doesn't mean he would actively try to ruin her married life.

The implications, accusations made on his character during the press conference by one Rubina Dilaik had hurt him a lot. Still he has bravely answered all of their questions and had smiled at the insults.

"Yeah, we did but I just thought to remind you again." Rubina said.

"Well, don't worry, I won't say anything bad about you in the press, if that's what's you're worried about," Rahul told her patiently. "We were two contestants in this house. We both have faced lots of hurdles in our journey to come here, so I've nothing bad to say about you. Once we leave this house tonight, everything will be forgotten, alright?"

"Yeah," Rubina replied and looked sideways towards the gate. "You're a good guy, Rahul," she said quietly.

"Tell me that again when you truly believe it yourself," Rahul told her and gave her a small smile. Then walked back to the sofa and sat down.

The alarm rang out and Rahul called out to Rubina and patted the sofa with his hand. Slowly she walked into the living area and sat down beside him.

While sitting there, Rahul checked his hair in the mirror. As he tried to take care of his mane, his eyes caught a glimpse of Rubina's face in the mirror. She was looking at her lap, at her hands. She looked... disturbed. Maybe a little... sad? But why?

As he opened his mouth to ask what's wrong? She looked up.

"Rahul. There's something I need to be honest with you. You don't know..."

"Here's our top two finalists of BB14! Rahul & Rubina! How you guys feeling?"

"Great sir" Rahul said.
"Really great, sir" Rubina replied, excitedly.

As their host appeared on the TV and continued his monologue, Rahul took a quick glance at Rubina. How predictable. Back to the picture perfect persona. No sign of earlier discomfort or nervousness.

Truly, they're poles apart. But he was telling the truth when he said, he'd only speak nice things about her to the press. He meant it and would stick by it.

Four and a half month have passed and yet they couldn't form a friendship. That thought used to bother him in the past. Tonight, however, he has made peace with it.

"Now, listen to me carefully you two. The movers are here. You guys need to go outside, then Bigg Boss will tell you the rest."

"Can't change the fate," Rahul told himself. Outside, his future awaits.