The Jerk's Fake Girlfriend

Chapter 18: This Can't Be.

TRIGGER WARNING!!!

Elena's P.O.V

Alec picking me up for school had become a norm. Neither of us found it weird, the things we'd do in our fake relationship. How casual he was with my mom, how often his mom used to call me, it didn't bother us. It was like we were actually in a relationship. Oh how bad it's going to hurt when we end this. 

Right now I was waiting for him to come pick me up. My phone pinged, diverting my attention from the living room's window where I was watching the trees sway with the wind. It was Alec. It wasn't even a second later I heard his car roar in our driveway, his signature horn following. I grabbed my bag and the keys and ran outside, locking the door behind me. It was almost like I was excited. He waved at me from the car and I waddled down the pavement with a smile on my face. 

"Hey! How's it going?", he chirped as soon as I settled in his car, Weeknd playing on the radio.

"Why did you come early today?", I questioned. He called me at 6:30 in the morning and told me he'd come early to pick me up, I obviously questioned him but he just cut the call on my face. I got up and was ready by 7:10. Mom had a night duty in the hospital, even if she was home, she wouldn't have cared even a little bit to question my activities. It was currently 7:20 and we were on our way to what looked like Starbucks.

"I missed you too El, I'm glad you asked about me. I'm doing good too.", he sassed with a smile on his face. He was dressed different today.  A good different. He donned a pair of black jeans with a thick grey jumper that fit his muscular torso just perfectly. I can't believe I'm about to say this but it was like God took some extra time on him, but hey, I wasn't complaining. It felt nice to be seen with a man that gorgeous. He probably didn't feel the same though. I was wearing a black turtleneck with black jeans with a long  Xanadu-colored  coat. I thought I looked nice but now with Alec, I felt like an abomination. My therapist always told me I had a low self-esteem thing, I'm certain of it now.

"I felt like we didn't hang out alone much so I decided to dedicate this day to ourselves.", he replied. I felt so weird now that he said it. I was pondering over the thought of confronting Alec about the situation we had gotten into. It was going to get messy the longer we played this fake relationship game. The fact that I didn't belong in his extra-ordinary life didn't let me sleep at night. I was becoming too attached to him and the amount of attention he gave me. 

We were two completely different people, with different thoughts and lifestyles. We didn't fit together. Just now, how different we looked, the way we were dressed right now, completely unalike, made me feel out of place, like I just couldn't be good enough for him. Getting to know him these weeks had taught me one thing, Alec was not the jerk that he looked like. At least he wasn't a jerk to me and my bestfriend. He looked good in the simple clothes he was wearing and I looked homeless in whatever I wore.

 I'm not exaggerating this. I was only ever called good-looking and pretty four or five times in my entire life, and a good three of those were just from my grandparents. I was always complemented on my eyes or my hair or how I was dressed that day. We all know what that meant. So, now that I was hanging out with one of the most good-looking guys from our school, it made me feel out of place. Like I didn't belong with him. Now that we were getting too close, I felt like I should leave his side. It definitely wasn't for me. It was for a walking goddess like Jewel, and no matter how much we all despised her, it wasn't a secret how gorgeous she was and how much Alec and her would've made a beautiful couple, and the worst part? She was aware of it. Too bad her personality was like something that came out of the gutter. 

This thought made me mad. How I couldn't be with a guy like Alec. How was I  able to pull Blake? My mood instantly dropped and now I wanted to go home, snuggle into my covers with a mug of hot chocolate and sleep to some Supernatural playing in the background. He probably noticed it so he asked me.