South park x Reader

Chapter 14

I was sitting down crying as I was telling Cartman everything about my past. everything about James everything about my mental breakdowns everything about my friends and how some of them were toxic and how some of them were actually really nice to me. the whole time I was explaining everything I would look up at Cartman and he looked like he was about to cry but I must have been seeing things. 

"yea so that's my life I guess" I chuckled a little at myself for telling the biggest dickhead everything wrong with me. I was expecting him to laugh at me or shoot mean words or at least tell someone about it. but he didn't he just pulled me into a tight hug and I yet again cried into his arms. He patted my back trying to calm me down which was very soothing and I soon came to a stop from crying. 

 Cartman's Pov: 

my heart hurt for her seeing her just break down crying in my arm and made something in me just want to hold onto her for the rest of my life. this feeling was new and I didn't know what to do with it.  I have always been a jerk to everyone and I'm fine with being known as one as well but sometimes wish people wouldn't think of me like that and think that sometimes I have feelings and need to tell people about them. but if I do all of this and tell people even my own friends they would bully and say names at me. I would never be able to hear the end of it. so I always just held in my emotions and never let them out but seeing y/n upset like this and that her life isn't perfect like I thought I couldn't keep it in any longer. All of the emotions I have been holding in for over five years finally got let out all at once. my throat started to sting and I felt a cold sensation drop down my left cheek and another till it turned into a waterfall. I couldn't stop it I was crying it was all just coming out they fell onto y/n's shirt leaving a dark patch. 

y/n must have felt her shoulder getting wet because she looked up at me with red swollen eyes confusion laid on her face. when she saw that I was crying her expression changed. her eyes relax and her eyebrows curved in a little. She was worried. she placed her hand on top of mine and smiled a little at me.  everywhere around my hand tingled and seeing her smile at me made my heart race. what was happening to me. 

"Hey Eric are you ok" her voice was soft and spoke so calmly as if nothing happened. I broke down even more hearing my name from her was amazing. I put my head down and closed my eyes and she put her hand on my cheek pulling my head up to look at her. I open my eyes, things were blurry but she was still seen clearly. 

"you don't have to tell me if your not comfortable but I'm always here for you Eric" y/n pulled her hand away from my head. I took in a deep breath and began talking my voice was shaky but I think she understood what I was saying because she was nodding her head with every sentence. 

y/n Pov: 

seeing Cartman breaking down in front of me was something that caught me very off guard. I had no idea this guy had feelings but I guess everyone does even the ones you didn't think did. I held him close and let him cry on me and talk to him letting him know that he is ok. Cartman soon pulled away wiping his tears and looked me straight in the eyes and spoke.

 "Sorry for crying on you it's just I haven't had anyone to show my emotions to, because everyone else would bully me for it." I nod my head letting him know it's safe and ok to go ahead. "I guess having all of the pressure of that my mum is a hoe and that my dad is dead because I killed him and served him to this kid not knowing he was my dad. I just have all of this weight on my shoulders of always having to be the mean kid who always has comebacks and always has a temper. It has just been hard to keep it together recently" He finished telling me his story and I nodded my head throughout it all letting him know I understand him.

I put my hand on Cartman's shoulder, he flinched at the touch and smiled. He pushed himself off the bed and walked towards my desk and sat down looking at the science project. I got up as well and sat down next to him and we both started working on the project together.

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hey, a new chapter. I had such bad writer's block I didn't know what to do and sorry this chapter is very short but I think I'm back onto it. school has also been super busy but I'm doing this instead of my assessments lol

don't forget to drink water and eat food and rest your doing amazing :)

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