Dealing with Jealousy (TsukiYama)

Secrets?

It had been 3 days since the confession and All the Boys finally got a day off so Yamaguchi and Terushima were gonna go on their date. But someone else was looking to hang out with Yams.

Tsukki POV

I noticed Yamaguchi was talking to a lot of other people at the training camp and I know i'm supposed to be happy about this because this is what I've always wanted for him but....                    everyone is so much nicer and welcoming than I am so if he really wanted to he could replace me but he wouldn't do that right I mean that's not him. Not the Yams I know I'll always be number 1............right?

"Did you ever talk to him about your feelings?" Kurro said pulling me out of my thoughts.

I turned my head to see Kurro and Kenma standing in the doorway.

"No I never got around too it." 

"Well I know this is probably out if place fro me to tell you but Ya- OUCH!" 

"Kurro you should think about what your about to tell him, choose wisely I'll be outside playing my game." Kenma half mumbled walking out of the gym.

"I still am gonna tell you because I want you to process this..." There was a pause before he continued "Terushima confessed to Yamaguchi and apparantly they are going on a date...." 

It took me a second to comprehend what he had just said but when I realized what he meant it hit me like a train. I didn't know how to take it I was so confused I was happy to know Tadashi Was well liked but why did it have to happen know when I'm trying to get rid of feeling's that I don't want to be there. Second why did it have to be Terushima of all people I already didn't like him but, not there was a huge problem with that guy. I mean I'm Tadashis number one! I've earned that spot no one will take that from me! But he excepted someone else's feelings does he not consider me number one.... No please that cant be it.

"Kei, Kei, KEI!"

"W-what?" 

"Y-your..."

"I'm What?" 

"Crying."

I didn't even realize until he told me but I felt tears rolling down me cheek. That's when I realized giving into my feeling's makes me way more vulnerable. And way more likely for you to hurt me. 

"I'M just gonna go to my room I need to be alone for a while."

"Ok, and Kei."

"hmm."

"Promise you will talk to him about this cause it could be a misunderstanding and he could still like you it's not the end for you two I know better... cause I know he care's."

I was already half way out the door by the time he finished talking he was right I need to figure all of this out but so far i'm not feeling to good. I know i'm in love with you yams but, will you ever know that, would you ever love me too? 

(Flashback) 

"dont you want to fall in love some day?" Yams said getting off the swing.

"No I dont even like people." 

"yeah now that you mention it your not close with a lot of people."

"Because I don't want to be, people are annoying." Kei said pushing up his glasses.

"But you hang out with me, a-and i'm clinging and annoying."

Kei didn't say anything.

"Sniff"

Kei turned around to see tadashi on the verge of tears. 

"Wait a second you idiot." Kei said grabbing Tadashi. 

"I-i don't think your annoying or clingy I like hanging out wi-with you." Both of them blushing by the end of the sentence.

 "Sometimes it's better to be alone because no one can hurt you." Kei said whipping the tear from Tadashi's cheek. 

heh,heh, don't worry Tsukki I wont let you get hurt with me by your side!" Smiling brightly.

(Present)

"I hate having flashbacks of things I don't want to remember."