Something To Fight For

I'll Be Okay

Rick had wanted me to go with them to Woodbury but he told me that he felt I should stay here since what had happened last time on our journey to Woodbury. I assured him that everything would be fine if there was one plan that everyone was aware of with no changes unless everyone's safety depended on it.

"Is Carl going?" I asked Rick while everyone was starting to grab weapons for the journey. He nodded his head and then my decision was made for certain.

"I'm going." He looked to me after zipping up his jacket, then he threw his gun over his shoulder.

"Are you sure?" I nodded and looked down to my combat boots. They had so many stains and so much dirt on them. I remember when they were clean.

My mom had told me that they were going to be stupid and useless but look now. I wear them everyday. The thought brought a tear to my eye which Rick apparently saw. He looked to me and silently asked if I was okay. I nodded and then started walking towards the rest of the group with Rick behind me.

As we exited the prison fences, I looked to see Carl who silently walked beside me. He looked at me through the corner of his eye, using his peripheral vision. The whole time we looked at each other, I felt as if we were sending mixed signals. I could feel my feelings for him be rekindled to its fullest extent. But all was forgotten as we approached the walls of Woodbury. There, the same guards sat that captured our Glenn and Maggie.

When I saw them, this anger flared up inside of me that I had felt many times before. One of those times when Rick had started fighting me. But that was in the past now. Rick looked to me and nodded. Everyone looked at me.

"I'll be the distraction. And you guys-" the hurt in Carl's eyes would never be able to be matched again. He had never looked this hurt. Everyone else in the group looked hurt as well but no where near the hurt that Carl's eyes held.

All of the group had a sudden outburst of how we should remember last time and all of this, but this was different. This time, we weren't just coming to ruin the governor; while that was still part of the plan. This time, we were here to rescue two of my favorite people. I had serious motives this mission. I could not fail them. I looked to Carl while the others were fighting with each other.

"You do know why, right?" I asked him in a whisper. He nodded. Instead of getting upset, he grabbed my face and pulled me in for a kiss. When he pulled back, I stared into his eyes. What had made him do that? Then, I decided, I didn't care. I pulled him in again and kissed him longer than he kissed me the first time. That was all of the motivation I would need.

When we pulled away this time, apparently everyone else in the group had stopped fighting at some point. They were all looking at us. My face turned bright red and I looked down at the ground. I looked up when Rick's hand was placed on my shoulder. He smiled and nodded. I knew that he approved and was happy.

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After the group had dispersed, we all left to do our assigned duties. I snuck into this whole on the fence guarding Woodbury and stayed in the shadows. Daryl was watching my back, but from a distance.

I had found this building that was heavily guarded and pointed to it, hoping Daryl would see and understand. I decided that I should go to the guards and do my distraction so Daryl could go in and grab Glenn and Maggie. At least, that's what we wanted to happen.

I stepped out from the shadows and ran up to the guards and said,"What you bastards? You never seen a teenager before? Just trying to survive in this shit world. Oh and yeah, you suck at your job." And then, they came at me. I fought as hard as I could but let's face it. I was a teenage girl up against two muscular zen masters. They tackled me to the ground in less than twenty seconds after my speech. When I hit, I saw Daryl running to the building to get them. And I cried happy tears and prayed that no one else was inside.