Something To Fight For

Woodbury

Everyone started walking outside of the prison. It was the team then me. I wasn't surprised that Rick had told Carl to stay back here. But that was probably because of other things this time; not me.

As we walked to Woodbury, Glenn and Maggie shot me looks. It looked like they were trying to ask me something. They were probably wondering why Rick had asked me to come.

But when after a while, when I looked back at the two, I saw Maggie's look become scared. Very very scared. And it worried me. I knew she wasn't scared because of going to Woodbury, although part of it probably was that. But I knew she was scared for me.

She kept trying to get Glenn's attention without drawing attention from everyone else who was silent. But it was impossible. Every time she started saying something, everyone looked back.

When I looked to the front of the group, I kept seeing Rick and Daryl look at each other. They knew something that no one else knew. I don't know how I could tell that; I just could. I think it was something in their eyes; I couldn't tell what it meant, though. Like a glare or a look of knowing.

I tried to ignore them and focus on the goal here. And that goal was to see exactly what was going on inside Woodbury. Michonne, who was the beautiful black woman who was in the car that day, had told me once that she came here with this woman named Andrea.

She had rescued Andrea and they came here when they were spotted. She told me these people tortured her and that they were low lives. Especially the governor, she had said, he was the worst one. My heart felt for her. As we edged closer to Woodbury, Rick motioned for me to come to the front.

"Alright. Lucy you're gonna go in and distract him. Get caught if you have to. We'll come back for you," Rick said. I looked at him if he was absolutely crazy. Apparently, I wasn't the only one who looked at him crazy. I looked to my side to see Maggie opening her mouth to say something.

"Rick, this wasn't part of the plan. You told me she was sticking with me and Glenn." I thought about how nice it was to have them care about me like parents. It made my heart partly thaw out of the frozen state it had now been in for months. Goodness I could not think about Carl right now, I thought. Carl. Just the thought of his name. . .

Glenn talking shook me back to reality,"Yeah man. You can't just change the original plan. Didn't you say you wanted the democracy back?" That was a good argument Glenn had shot back. How was Rick going to beat that?

But what I still could not understand was why would Rick want me to be the distraction? He had told me before we left that we would all creep in slowly and stay in the shadows. This didn't sound anything like what he had told me. I was guessing what Rick had told me was the original plan, was what he had also told Glenn and Maggie was the original plan.

It was at that moment that Daryl stepped forward. I knew nothing good would come from his mouth. Especially since he hated me just like Rick seemed to.

"What Rick says goes. Can't argue right now. We're here." And with that, Glenn looked me to with pleading eyes to say something. I knew that if I were to go in there an be the distraction, I might not make it out.

I turned to Rick and decided that enough was enough. It was time that he stopped treating me like I was nothing and that meant I was not only going to confront him about this, but also about the whole Carl situation. When I turned my gaze on him, his eyebrows raised and he looked to me in full surprise when my mouth opened and words began to flow out.

"That's it. That's it, Rick. You've lost it. And don't say you have no idea what I'm talking about. You and Daryl have both been out to get me. And you know it's true!" I said, looking between the two of them. I felt my palms sweating and my hands shaking with nervousness. I felt like I might barf but I had to hold it back and be the big girl I knew I had to be.

"You're keeping away from Carl. I don't understand why you think that I'm a threat. If I am such a threat why don't you just kick me out? Why do you keep me here? I know why. Because you know that you need me. And the only reason why you're treating me like shit is because you want Carl to stay away from me. I know why you're upset. Because you lost someone. But we all have. So please don't take out everything on me. I'm sorry about Lori--" he cut me off and walked up to slap me in the face. Daryl was shaken back to reality and started trying to pull Rick away from me who had taken his hands to my face multiple times now.

I could hear Maggie and Glenn screaming as they tried to gain control of Rick. I could hear Daryl apologizing to me and to Glenn and Maggie. I could hear Rick yelling how much he hated me.

I could hear my heart. And I could hear how fast it was beating. I tried to concentrate on that. To tune out Rick who was still going at my face. My eyes were swollen already and my nose stung like hell. I could feel blood running all down my face. And then, the last I saw was Glenn and Maggie become spotted by one of the governors men as shots were fired. Then, Rick was off of me and we Daryl picked me up running in the direction of the prison.