Right person, right time

Addisons downfall

Meredith was awoken by yet again the sounds of addies vomiting Meredith knew Addison was making herself throw up but she didn't admit it. She walked over to the redhead and hugged her tightly Addison just sat there stiff as a board, she looked like a ghost of who she once was, she was once beautiful, tall, thin, but healthy thin and had the most amazing glow to her face she had so much joy and love but now she was hardly there. It brought tears to Merediths eyes at the thought of it.

After Meredith washed Addie they had to go to work, Meredith was obviously concerned about Addie going to work but thought she might feel better if she went in so they both got in the car  having said nothing to her thus far and drove to the hospital.

It was all a big rush when they arrived Addie had been paged 911 to an emergency and Meredith was on Burke's service so had to scrub in on 2 of his surgeries today. Meredith had studied for Burke's Humpty Dumpty surgery and had already performed a valve replacement a few hours prior, all of a sudden addies best friend Callie Torres came running over crying and shouting, Addison had attempted to take her own life.

I rushed into the room where Addie was, she was sleeping peacefully she had a drip in her hand providing fluids and medicine to reverse the drugs she had taken, Meredith just climbed into bed and hugged Addie tightly, the redhead groaned and asked Meredith to take off her scrub top so she could feel her warmth, she gladly agreed and she fell asleep cuddled into Addie resting her head in the crook of her neck.

Meredith woke up to Addison being sick again but not because she was doing it herself but because of the overdose, Addison was given a 2 hour drip to make her throw up any remaining tablets in her system and a 10 hour drip to reverse the affects of the overdose, Meredith rubbed circles on her back and held her hair while she was dry heaving because she had thrown up everything already, Addison started crying and Meredith just kissed her temple and rocked her until she fell asleep.

Addies POV-
I felt like death. Once I had woken up the day after my overdose, Meredith was still hugging me and I just felt so safe when I was with her I started sobbing because I knew that I'd hurt her and that I still felt suicidal, I couldn't bare to tell Meredith this information but I knew I had to so she could understand exactly what I was feeling. Meredith woke up mumbling "it's okay Addie I got you breathe just breathe" I was shaking at that point unable to control my cries. Meredith just sat up and pulled me into her lap "Addie sweetheart it's okay my love it's okay don't worry I've been where you are once in my life I get the feeling of wanting to be dead" this broke my heart I never realised Meredith had gone through this before either I just whispered "thank you"

IM SORRY THIS IS SUCH A SHORT CHAPTER IM NOW BACK TO ACTUAL SCHOOL SO IM SO TIRED, ALSO ADDIES EXPERIENCE WAS WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH ALL ATTEMPTS ARE DIFFERENT IM JUST BASING HER ATTEMPT OF MY ATTEMPT(I'm fine now i still struggle but I'm getting there my last attempt was a year ago so I'm proud of myself)