Right person, right time

Reality

3 weeks later*
The honeymoon phase was over, the reality of their lives caught up to them quickly.
Addison woke up and felt like shit, she knew she was going into a depressive state but couldn't bare to burden Meredith with it so she just snuggled up to Meredith for a little while longer before the two of them had to head into work for the morning. When Meredith woke up Addison was still snuggled up to the girl so Meredith nudged her slightly
"Cmon Addie wake up we need to get to work honey" Meredith said in a soft voice
"Mhmmpf" Addison finally awoke and they trailed down the stairs and Addison grabbed a slice of toast and butter along with a flask of coffee as did Meredith, once dressed and fed Meredith drove them to the hospital where they went their separate ways, all Addison could think about was how much she needed a release and comfort she now regretted not telling her fiancée about these thoughts but still decided on continuing her work.

Addisons work day was quite light today she had 2 c sections and a check up with another pregnant patient but then she was free to go home, the 2 c sections were finished at around 12:30pm so she went to an empty on call room and she just broke down, she didn't understand why but all she wanted was her fiancée so she paged Meredith to the on call room.

Meredith arrived relatively quickly and she walked in to see a distraught Addison scratching her arms to shreds  with her long fingernails, immediately Meredith ran over to Addison and pulled her into a tight hug before lifting her up and placing her in her lap on the bottom bunk of the on call room
"Baby what happened"
"Mer i-I'm sorry I-I'm struggling i don't know why everything was going so well" Addison choked out during gasps for air
"Addie darling recovery isn't linear relapse happens don't worry I've got you okay"

With that said Addison clung onto Merediths scrub top for dear life crying her eyes out, Meredith had never seen her lover like this before in her life.
Meredith was concerned but still rubbed her hand in soothing circles on the small of Addisons back as the redhead let her emotions flow through her like a river bursting its banks.

After a while Addison calmed down
"Mer I'm going to go home I've finished everything I need here Herman can take over my service"
"Okay Addie I'll tell Richard you have gone home, rest well okay I will see you soon"

Meredith went to inform Richard that Addison went home, of course Richard was okay with it he cared for Addison and Meredith deeply like a father would, Meredith continued to work until 7:00.

Meredith returned home at about 7:45
"Addison I'm home" Meredith yelled up the stairs but got no reply and immediately ran up the stairs to see what was going on.

Meredith opened the door to their bedroom and Addison was ripping her hair out screaming at something Meredith was confused, she walked over and tried to pull Addison into a hug but she just got forcefully shoved into a wall
"Get away from me you bitch, I'm the boss here so fuck off" Meredith felt tears well in her eyes Addison was going psychotic, suddenly Addison grabbed the glass she had on her bedside table smashed it and slit her wrists and throat narrowly missing her artery.
"Addie omg Addison" Meredith screamed and ran towards her bleeding fiancée, she phoned 999 while she put pressure on her neck
"Hello yes I need an ambulance down here, thank you hurry please my fiancée is having a psychotic episode and slit her throat and wrists" Meredith cried down the phone.

"What do we have" Owen said as the ambulance door flew open

"It's Addison Owen. Please help her please" Meredith was still applying steady pressure to her arm while the paramedics wheeled them into the ER
"Trauma 2 let's go people" Owen hollered as he ran in to help the distraught Meredith

"Okay Mer I know this is hard but Addison needs surgery on her arm to ensure nerves are intact and no further damage has been done, everything else checks out fine though, the is no severe damage to her neck, it will heal on its own, and there should be little to no scarring" Owen said to Meredith
"Okay she was having a psychotic ep-episode w-we nnn-need psych" Meredith managed to get out of her mouth before she broke down again with her head in her hands as Christina rubbed her back and wiped her tears with her white jacket sleeve. Christina had moved back to Seattle, mostly because her mother was unwell, but also because she missed her friends.

One Addisons surgery was over she was out into resus because she wasn't as critical as some other patients, Addison woke up groggy but alert and screaming for Meredith
"MEREDITH MEREDITH WHERE ARE YOU HELP ME" she yelled

Meredith came running in happy to see Addison awake but saddened to see her in this state, she went over to her fiancée and cupped her cheeks in her hands kissed her forehead lightly before she crawled into bed with Addison and Addison attatched herself to Merediths chest crying through her scrub top.

"Ads I thought I lost you, I didn't realise you were struggling this much babe, please let me know if you feel like this again I love you endlessly I can't loose my soulmate I can't i won't survive it"

END CHAPTER