My Snarky Tutor(Boyxboy)

~Chapter Thirty~

(Noah's P.O.V)

I woke up from my peaceful short dream, startled to find myself laying on someone's lap. However I instantly calmed down when I saw a sleeping Eric who was listening to my Ipod.

Then I remembered what happened before I fell asleep, I asked Eric to lay on his lap for comfort and I was listening to my own heart beat. Also, I listened to the silence that seemed nice and not awkward in the slightest.

Trying to sit up, I noticed how one of his arms was wrapped around me, holding me protectively. Gently moving his arm, I sat up, looking at Eric for a bit. How long was I asleep? I hope it wasn't for long...Eric must've been so uncomfortable.

Grabbing both his shoulders, I gently moved him to make him fall on his side. He landed softly on the bed and I moved him more so he was now laying on his back, his head resting on one of my pillows.

After looking at him for a bit, I laid down next to him. There were so many things I had to tell him. When I called him yesterday, I could only manage to tell him my break up with Dustin. But...a few days after that...so much has happened. I really wanted to tell Eric. I felt like I could tell him everything and I knew it was best to be honest with him...but...this would really effect our relationship. I knew that Eric wouldn't be angry at me for long over this, but what would happen to us after that? We would probably remain friends but...nothing will be like the way it used to. We wouldn't be comfortable around each other and Eric will stop liking me in a romantic way.

I moved closer to Eric and laid down on his chest.

Suddenly he moved which made me sit up.

"Noah?''

He yawned, taking out the ear buds and sat up as well.

I then turned away from him so I could think.

Okay....I needed to tell him. He had to know. I may reduce the chances of us dating but it's better if I tell him myself than him finding out on his own.

''Noah?'' he called me again and I couldn't bear to face him.

''I'm fine." I said, wanting to convince myself more than to convince him. I should tell him now, shouldn't I?

Feeling my heart pound of fear, I swallowed as I wiped my sweaty hands on my boxers.

All of a sudden, Eric hugged me from behind, his forehead leaning on the back of my head. I instantly calmed down, sinking into his warmth and security but now, it was just harder for me to tell him.

''Um..."

If I couldn't tell him, I should at least tell him that there was something else going on. Hopefully, that'll force me to tell him soon.

''There's something else bothering me...um...actually I've done something I shouldn't have.

I expected him to let go but instead, he held me tighter.

''What?'' he asked softly.

'Just say it' I thought to myself.

But I just couldn't.

I let out a shaky breath, feeling the weight of not telling him growing heavier and heavier.

''Whatever you have to tell me, it won't change anything." he said after a while.

"Yes it will." I insisted.

''Why?''

'You don't know me as well as you think you do." I wanted to say but I just shrugged instead.