Okay If you're reading this, Why? There is literally no point it's just stuff that I can't tell to anyone or just don't want to but if you like reading people wallow about themselves here you go.
How it is that my numbness is now ever-existing with me like I feel it all the time but it's different than the one I used to have during my depression episodes this one hovers over me and lets me have emotions but mutes them so much that I just feel dissatisfied with them. I don't know maybe I'm finally letting my craziness get me.
Question how do you plan your future if you don't want to have one or get motivated to find what to do with a life that you want to end? Like I just can't find stuff that I would be even semi-okay with doing in the future and the ones I do require too much effort and energy that I don't have.
