I can't even figure out how I feel anymore like I passively want to die even when I'm having a semi-good day the thought is just always there. For the last few months I don't remember a single day without some sort of thoughts like "I want to die".
Well, the next 5 months are going to be literally filled with worrying, stress and anxiety about money, university, filling out all sorts of papers and admitting them at the right time.
I'm so not looking forward to it, but after that, I just hope everything is going to be just a little better I really don't ask for that much.
