2nd semester is about to be over but there are exams and I can't make myself to study for them, I just can't. This only proves to me that school is not for me.
I worry about money, studies, my sister and my forced future life and I'm pretty sure that I am having a depressive episode although I don't know if it can be called that if I normally don't feel much better but It is just worse than usually. I can't let myself fall into it though because there is too much to do, so I can't even have a short break from living cause nobody knows how much I am really struggling and they are not going to help.
