Pierre/ hawk-Eli moskwitz

The panic attack

I had chills all over my body but this was good chills, maybe I was a natural cobra, I mean I enjoyed seeing him in pain. But there was no way I was that bad.

What was that about, Miguel asked. What. U fought a teacher u could get in serious trouble for that, he said. He started it. Remember what sensei said about showing mercy, he said. What the fuck Miguel he hurt me. I know but u might get the tournament canceled again, he said. So they tournament is more important. No I'm not saying that I'm just saying maybe u should think before u fight and maybe u should apologize to him, he said. For what. I don't know but it could help. Whatever Miguel I guess I know who my real friends are. Caitlyn wait, he yelled but it was to late. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror.

The marks from where he grabbed me. And the blood all of my mouth and body scared me. Shit what have I done. I tried wiping the blood off but it was still all over me. I tried to prepare myself for walking into class late. Sometimes I loved the attention this wasn't one of the times. I walked down the empty hall way and started shaking. I knocked on the door and when the teacher opened it everyone was staring at me. They started pointing and whispering. I tried to acting like I wasn't bothered but I was frozen in fear. I could tell I was about to have a panic attack so I asked the teacher if I could go to the nurse.

Before running out I locked eyes with hawk, he could tell something was wrong. I ran down the hall way and went back to the bathroom but people where there so I went into a empty classroom. It was a lot like the one I met hawk in only bigger.

HAWK'S POV:
I knew something was wrong with her sometimes she could hide her feelings but right now they were all showing. She asked to go to the nurse. I waited for her to leave and then I asked to go to the bathroom. U better not meet up with her, tory whispered. I won't I promise, I said. I kissed her on the forehead and walked out.

TORY'S POV:
U better not meet up with her, i whispered giving my puppy eyes. I won't I promise, he said and kissed me on the forehead. The minute he shut the door my smile disappeared. I didn't really love hawk it was just part of the plan to sike out Caitlyn. That was good, kyler said. I know I'm getting better at this whole acting thing. U don't feel anything for him, Ava asked. No nothing. She frowned. Don't even think about it slut, I want to make sensei proud so this is a easy task, I said.

HAWK'S POV:
I waked to the nurses office but she wasn't there, which made me freak out. What if she was overdosing again, what if I was to late and she died. I went around the empty classes and looked inside each. It was the farthest classroom down the hall. I went to open it but stopped myself. Wait, what are u doing, tory is ur girlfriend not Caitlyn. She wanted u to pick tory, u made the right chose. I turned around and started walking away.

I knew she was in there, that classroom, of course she would be. She loved running away from her problems. But I loved chasing her. What's wrong with me. I have a wonderful girlfriend and I'm still in love with someone I can't have. I walked back and stood infront of the door. I was debating whether or not o should go in. But I could hear her breathing it was loud and heavy. I open the door and walked in, he breathing didn't slow down. Maybe she didn't need me anymore.

Caitlyn are u ok, I asked. She didn't answer. I ran up to her and sat down with her. Come on breath, It's not that hard. Then u do it for me, she said. I should shouldn't I, I said. Hawk it's not time to joke I can't breathe, she said. Shit right. I could help her breath I learned how to in health. For some reason it started getting worse. Think happy things. I can't I can't, she mumbled practically spiting out her words. Look at me, I said grabbing her face. Nothing was helping so I pulled her in for a kiss.

I knew I shouldn't but it was the last resort and nothing else was helping.

CAITLYN'S POV:
I couldn't breath and it was getting worse by the minute. Just breath, it's not that hard, hawk said. Then u do it for me, I said. I should shouldn't I, he said. It wasn't the time for jokes I could barely breath and he was joking. Shit right, he said. Think happy things, he said. But nothing was working. I can't I can't, I mumbled struggling to speak. He grabbed my face and looked me in the eyes. Still nothing was working. He looked at my eyes and then down and my lips and pulled me in for a kiss.

My body immediately relaxed. I haven't kissed him in so long. He pulled away and my breathing was normal. How'd u do that, I asked. I learned about it in health, that holding ur breath could stop a panic attack, so when we kissed u held ur breath, he said. Thanks, I said leaning against the wall. By the way we can't tell tory about this, he said. Why, I asked. Because she told me not to meet up with u right before I left, he said. Yeah we are just friends anyway, I said. Yeah friends, he said.

They both looked away heartbroken, the thought of them being just friends hurt both of them.

Well I'll see u in class, hawk said getting up. Y'all I'll see u to, Caitlyn said. The tension in between them was like nothing more. They loved each other, needed each other. And that kiss was just one more reason why.