I woke up to the annoying noise coming from the constant ringing of my phone. I didn't realized that I slept on the floor and my room is in complete chaos.
Despite the excruciating pain in my temple, I got up and search for my stupid phone.
What did I do last night? Why does my room look like a pigpen? It reeks alcohol and there's a lot of empty bags of chips scattered around the floor. Damn it!
I found my phone under my carpet.
"JK!" Seok, my manager yelled at me over the phone. Right, today is Saturday and I'm supposed to have a shoot for an Ad.
Seok Jin is one of my friends whom I consider my brother. I practically begged him to be my manager because I can't possibly handle keeping track of time and schedules. He accepted the position because I offered him a pretty good deal. He's not doing this for money because he's filthy rich. It's a good thing that there are things that money can't buy.
"Jin hyung. Please cancel all my schedules for today. I'm not feeling well." I said as I went out of my room and went straight to my fridge to drink some water because I feel like my body is out of fluid.
It took him a few seconds before he answered.
"Okay! Get some rest." He said and then ended the call. I'm so glad that he didn't asked any questions anymore. I'm very diligent in terms of work, so when I canceled a photoshoot, he knows that something serious happened.
I look at my phone screen and realized that it was already 11am. No wonder I'm so hungry.
Before preparing for my lunch, I went to my room first to clean up the mess I've made last night.
After 30mins of cleaning, my hunger suddenly disappeared so I decided to just take a nap instead. I felt so drained both physically and emotionally.
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"I missed you." I said as I stare at her. It was almost 7pm when I decided to go out and visit her.
"I should've went here last night instead of drinking myself to death." I said again. My tears fell as I stare at her picture smiling at me. How comforting that smile was. My Ji An, the only woman I ever loved.
I missed her so much and I missed her even more now that I literally have no one to rely on, so I decided to visit her grave. My Ji An.
"Ji An, I missed you so much." My voice cracked as my weak knees meet the cold ground. I let myself collapse into the freezing ground.
"I wanted to be with you. I wanted to feel the warmth of your embrace. I wanted to hear your beautiful voice. I wanted to hear you say that you miss me too. I wanted you to tell me that everything is going to be okay." I cried painfully knowing that no one is really there for me to tell me that everything is going to be fine because everyone practically abandoned me.
"I'm sorry." My tears couldn't stop from falling as if they are trying to escape from an eternal imprisonment. "I'm sorry I couldn't protect you." More tears streamed down my face as I remember that painful night.
"I'm sorry." I cried out loud hoping to let all my pain go. I let all my frustrations out.
"Aaaah! Let me go!" I heard a familiar voice which made me get back into my senses. My tears immediately stopped and my body suddenly quivered in fear at the sense of danger. It's getting dark and no one is actually around anymore.
"Please! No!" I heard it again. I run around to find where that desperate voice is coming from until I saw a woman being harassed by two men. I didn't think twice and rushed to where they are.
